Hello, I apologize for being away from posting on this site for so long. I had a very strong depression crisis, and thanks to the support of my loved ones and professional help, I was able to overcome it. I hope to soon return to tell my stories and share my ideas on this forum. I send you a sincere hug.
I want to share a piece of music made with a lot of feeling. enjoy it, thanks
https://soundcloud.com/carlos-chavez-80/melancholy-for-the-absence-of-you?utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing&si=16d787e4172f40fe8daeab3d83200d73
With each passing day - some quieter, some heavier - the pain persists. The inability to eat has made the wait for death increasingly agonizing. I realize, to no avail, that lucidity occasionally eludes me. Losing my mind, the storehouse of my knowledge and memories, is a particularly distressing thought. It reminds me of the line Roy Batty delivers in the film Blade Runner, "All...
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Days passed slowly, consumed by the repairs of the security system and covering Camila's various activities. I was always looking for gaps to fit in my exercise routines and smoke my tobacco. The interaction between Camila and me was quite cordial, respectful, but she always made it clear who was in charge.
One night, after the day's activities, I headed to the pool and decided...
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Miami, 2012.
In an office on the top floor of a building in Miami, a small meeting took place. A distinguished-looking older man began to speak. "I've heard a lot of good things about you, Mr. Aréchiga. A close friend of mine told me that you're the best when it comes to personal protection. You will be responsible for safeguarding my most valuable asset," stated...
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My SuicideGirl:
it's been a year since your absence, a year since you left this plane to join the stars, watching us from above in another dimension. A year since our last kiss, our last hug, our last "I love you".
You were torn from my life in the most unexpected way, with a ticket for a journey with no return.
I still wait for...
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A few days past, I found myself in the throes of a pain crisis. My physician was summoned, administering a potent morphine infusion that sent me spiraling into a deep slumber. After nearly two days of rest, I emerged, renewed. My appetite returned, and the promise of brighter days ahead filled me with a renewed vigor. As always, I sought solace in my sanctuary, my...
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It has been a good week, my pain has been under control, the latest treatments have worked and allow me to eat properly. This has allowed me to embark on a culinary journey around the city, visiting restaurants with dishes worth eating again, I have enjoyed it immensely. I visited the French restaurant "Bistro Paris", where accompanied by a good table wine, I tasted a...
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Dear All,
In this festive season, I wish that the joy and peace of Christmas accompany you and your loved ones. Although we do not know each other personally, let me share with you the good wishes of a Christmas filled with happiness and a prosperous New Year.
May the lights of the Christmas tree illuminate your path to success, and may the spirit of
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Two days ago, I underwent my chemotherapy session. My oncologist communicated that it was merely to maintain my ability to eat normally and to mitigate pain, but it was not curative. Yesterday, the majority of my day was spent in rest under the vigilant eyes of my children and caregivers. It was only today that I returned to the studio to revisit my memoirs and...
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It's 5 pm, the pain in my abdomen has been increasing over the last few days, but the morphine seems to be working. It's raining outside, so I won't allow myself to head to the bar. I move towards my study and settle into my desk chair. I review some papers I have here and spot my journal. Over a month has passed since the...
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