cariv

ok, so. i was just told that i wont get to see my boyfriend in september. i haven't ssen him since january. he lives in san diego, i live in france. i was supposed to go visit him in september, but it's not gonna happen. why? because he is going to be sent overseas. of course. the month i was fucking supposed to see him. so, i have no fucking idea when i will see him again. i've been missing him so much, and lookinf forward to see him so bad for the past months, that it hurts like hell to know its not gonna happen. some people may think it's stupid to be waiting for a guy that is that far, but i just think it's worth it. it's hard though. i need him, and i don't think he realises that. i dont even think he has an idea of how much i love him.
now, all that sound pretty gay.
let's talk about something else.
finals soon. gotta study, which kinda keeps my mind busy. and i'm going to move in with my cousin: her boyfriend is going overseas as well, and she has to deal with her 2 kids by herself. so, im going to give her a hand.
also, i need to find a job. i freaking need money, and i owe my brother quite a lot. being a student is expensive.
finally, i saw spiderman 3 yesterday, and it's pretty good: it's kinda surprising, because it's funny. oh well, won't say more than that.