captknutz

When it rains it pours, Haven't had any attention from females for a long time until about wendsday it started. Been seeing a lot of Jessica lately first off, which I'll hang out with her every other day for two weeks and then not here from her for a month. Nothings going to happen there any way, cause she's made it quite clear that it'll never go past freinds for unspecified reasons.
Anyways then on wendsday Some girl asked for my number, but she'll probably never call me.
Called Brooke, the girl I went to high school with but was always afraid to talk to yesterday, she said she might be up for something on saturday, but I don't have a real good feeling about it.
Today Mikeala gave me a call while I was asleep, and said "call me back as soon as you get this" of course I do, but as usual no answer, e-mailed her to see what was goin' on, but since she's avoided me since the end of april I probably won't get an answer there for at least a week if ever.
And then, just now this random psycho girl, who is hot, but is real into the bullshit games thing gave me a call. This girl calls like once a month and then I don't here from her again. She is a complete waste of time, to quote Fight Club: "a predator posing as a housepet" So she says she wants to catch up and will call back in like 20 minutes, so I won't hear from her for another month. Like I really fuckin care.
Why am I being so pesimistic you ask, I'm not I'm merely being realistic. Really you'd think I'd be happy with all these "prospects" believe me though, they are not prospects merely gos trying to give me false hopes so that it's that much more funny when it doesn't happen.
Believe me I'd love nothing more than to be proven wrong, At the very least getting some would be acceptable at this point. Yes I've said it a million times that I really want to just meet a nice fuckin girl that I think is hot and have a relationship, yes I've said that I'm much more of a relationship guy and that the whole sport fucking thing is stupid, however my freind peter hasn't had any attention in a long time.
Man I have shitty luck with women!!!

Songs of the day:
Brand New-Sic Trans Gloria
Alkaline Trio- Hell Yes(because god hates me)
"I gave up on you a long time ago how can you blame me?
We made plans to meet and you never showed you kept me waiting,
They said everything would work out just fine,
They said you'd help me,
But as it turns out it was all a lie, and they're all someplace far away laughing at me.

You been there for me one time in my life, but it didn't matter.
You came and you went so fast all my hope and faith in you shattered.
Alone here I sit, alone in this room no one to confide in, you watched all my dreams come apart at the seams, you laughed, you left you went into hiding!

Bless Me dark father I have sinned, I 've done it before and I'll do it again, it keps me warm, it makes you smile, been beneath me all the while....hell yes!

You gave up on me a long time ago, can't say I blame you.
I rejected the faith in your holy race is what it boils down to.
They said everything would work out just fine but I just went crazy, but I'm better now having a good time being selfish and horny and drunken and lazy!

Bless me dark father I have sinned, I've done it before and I'll do it again, it keeps me safe it makes you smile been beneath me all the while,
Bless me dark father I can't win, without you I'm as good as dead, keeps me safe, makes you smile, you been beneath me all the while,...whispering...sweet nothings....whispering.....sweet nothings....you been whispering...sweeet nothings!
HELL YES! HELL YES! HELL YES! HELL YES! HELL YESSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"