Like Eating Glass
So Work has been hell. I got so mad the other day I punched the wall and now my middle finger don't feel so good. Anyways, tomorrow I'm off on a road trip. Going to Denver to pick up Willy then we're heading into cowboy country, fucking wyoming to see Johnny. After that we're all heading to SLC to this decent goth/industrial place we found there. I'm hoping that will be a good time and maybe help take my mind off of things for a while.
My mind has been plagued with all sorts of shit. Such as the fact that after this trip I will be broke as hell for like at least the next two weeks or so. So that will suck but it's nothing I haven't dealt with before.
Then the other day, I had a good chance to talk to the penpal, and she said she liked me, and that I was the only person she wants to see when she gets back, and that she wants to be with me when she gets back. When I first heard that I couldn't have been more elated, and I still am because she is beautiful, intelligent, and basically everything I could hope for in someone else. But, the thing is, I'm worried. I'm worried because she isn't supposed to get back in Late January or early February, and thus far that is when I am scheduled to leave, for six months. I've already waited three months for her, it will be six before she's back and that's fine with me, and if I go without seeing her(which is what I am REALLY afraid of) then I will make it a full year if I must, but the question on my mind is, how long will she be willing to wait for me? What if she loses interest? What if she can't wait that long? So right now my great hope is that she gets back early enough, and we leave late enough, that we'll get to see each other. What's making me lose my damn mind is that I want to do something about this so bad, I feel like there is something I should be doing about all this, like something I really need to do about it, but I can't think of anything, I keep trying to figure out something, but thus far I can't.
I'm hoping that maybe the time and space of this trip will help clear out my haed for a bit, maybe then I can figure out something, maybe, somehow, some way things will all work out, that's all I can hope for right now
So Work has been hell. I got so mad the other day I punched the wall and now my middle finger don't feel so good. Anyways, tomorrow I'm off on a road trip. Going to Denver to pick up Willy then we're heading into cowboy country, fucking wyoming to see Johnny. After that we're all heading to SLC to this decent goth/industrial place we found there. I'm hoping that will be a good time and maybe help take my mind off of things for a while.
My mind has been plagued with all sorts of shit. Such as the fact that after this trip I will be broke as hell for like at least the next two weeks or so. So that will suck but it's nothing I haven't dealt with before.
Then the other day, I had a good chance to talk to the penpal, and she said she liked me, and that I was the only person she wants to see when she gets back, and that she wants to be with me when she gets back. When I first heard that I couldn't have been more elated, and I still am because she is beautiful, intelligent, and basically everything I could hope for in someone else. But, the thing is, I'm worried. I'm worried because she isn't supposed to get back in Late January or early February, and thus far that is when I am scheduled to leave, for six months. I've already waited three months for her, it will be six before she's back and that's fine with me, and if I go without seeing her(which is what I am REALLY afraid of) then I will make it a full year if I must, but the question on my mind is, how long will she be willing to wait for me? What if she loses interest? What if she can't wait that long? So right now my great hope is that she gets back early enough, and we leave late enough, that we'll get to see each other. What's making me lose my damn mind is that I want to do something about this so bad, I feel like there is something I should be doing about all this, like something I really need to do about it, but I can't think of anything, I keep trying to figure out something, but thus far I can't.
I'm hoping that maybe the time and space of this trip will help clear out my haed for a bit, maybe then I can figure out something, maybe, somehow, some way things will all work out, that's all I can hope for right now
k2photostudio:
Belated welcome to SG Colorado! Hope to see you at some shows around town.