where do we draw the line of how much is too much, do we give up or fight for what we say we have wanted? i ask this every day and every day i keep fighting. what scares me is that one day i won't have the energy to fight becaus ethere is times when i already don't fell like it, just feel like letting things go, starting fresh. god i want to start fresh. maybe i am just afraid of giving up. even when it makes the most sense. sometimes i think i lose sight of whether i'm foring for something of just fighting hoping to end something. it a pretty scary m,oment when you don't know if what you always claim to want is what you really want anymore.
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