captaindavid

Wow. Being sick is lame. I'm so unbelievably bored. And I keep thinking about sex, but I can't get aroused. My girlfriend and I haven't had sex in like a week, and I have no idea why. I guess it shouldn't be that big a deal, but I kinda want to have alot of sex at this time in my life. Before this year I had a 4 year barren patch, and... well, I wanna get my groove on! bah...

It's funny too, cause we did go for the open relationship setup, but I don't want to have sex with other people when I want to sleep with her I want my girlfriend damnit! We've also been having an issue with lubricant. She gets dry just about after her first orgasm, and we just got an artificial lubricant for future sessions. But, I can't help but feel like she's kinda just having sex with me cause I want to have sex. I want her to want it independent of my desire. We've talked about it, and her last boyfriend was extremely afraid of... well, everything it seems. He didn't like having sex when the bed was squeaky because he was afraid somebody might hear them. God forbid someone knows your getting on with your SO.

I just hope she's ok. She's been so distant when we're alone, but if we're hanging out with people she's all over me and flashing me behind corners and shit. We've talked about some things she might enjoy so we're gonna try that. Guess it won't be till I'm over this disease though, since my labido is hibernating for the time being

Anyhow, hope yall are doin the goods...