Good fucking lord. I have been living without internet for soooooooo long. I've been working in a city about 2 and a half hours away from my home living in a hotel with no internet, needless to say i haven't done anything on this site in a solid forever. Storytime? Been putting a new fire alarm system in a hospital in this new town (yes i'm aware of just how interesting that actually sounds:puke and will be for another 10 weeks. Its given me a solid amount of time to think about where my life is going. I fear I am not going in a direction that leads to my happiness, I have a very good career that allows me to live a comfortable enough lifestyle but its just not enough. I'm so tired of the people I've been friends with. I understand people have their own lives but it just seems we've all drifted apart so much. There is an unreliability that has developed with these people that gets on my nerves. Last night I went out to the bar with one of my good buddies for a few drinks. we had a wicked time for a couple hours but at one point he disappeared (dude was also my ride home) and i saw him outside. When i went out and talked to him he was leaving with some girl, said he would be back in a second. Waited an hour, called him 5 times and no answer. At this point I am under the impression that he has either ditched me to get laid, which is douchy but understandable... or he has gotten into some kind of accident. Needless to say i'm worried. Well turns out he just went home and went to bed, said he was sorry and that he forgot about me. I know he didn't leave with the girl because i saw her later that night and she was asking me about him. Shit like that really ticks me off haha.
The point i'm trying to make here is I feel i could use a new city, a new crowd. Winnipeg isn't very large, and i was involved in the music scene enough to be fairly well known among a certain group. At this point its hard to meet someone my age who doesn't either already know me, know of me and my group of friends or have just heard stories that may or may not be true, as we were a bit of a party band and had a reputation for being awesome. another contributing factor for this was an independent pharmaceuticals venture...wink(that has not existed for years mind you). I would like to add that I am not claiming any fame haha this is just the reality of the situation. To be honest I'm an introvert by nature and mostly keep to myself. It just seems people think they know me before they meet me, hence forth not taking the time to actually get to know me. This then brings up notions of who i should and shouldnt talk to and blah blah blah. I often just feel l need a fresh start.
Is it cliche to feel like i should be out doing charity work in a different country/continent? But then could i even handle such a venture? It seems that I lack the confidence to make a leap of faith. That being said I still need to leave winnipeg. My home life here is shit, this city does not have a whole lot left for me to take. I am debating on making the move to British Colombia. My mom recently moved out there and the majority of the family that actually talks to me is out there. As long as I can find work in my field it shouldn't really be an issue. Really would like to maybe leave the country and or continent though haha. Ah man I just have no idea what I am doing but I really need to do something.
Ah well, I'm going to head to the west coast and check it out. Maybe I'll find a reason to stay.
The point i'm trying to make here is I feel i could use a new city, a new crowd. Winnipeg isn't very large, and i was involved in the music scene enough to be fairly well known among a certain group. At this point its hard to meet someone my age who doesn't either already know me, know of me and my group of friends or have just heard stories that may or may not be true, as we were a bit of a party band and had a reputation for being awesome. another contributing factor for this was an independent pharmaceuticals venture...wink(that has not existed for years mind you). I would like to add that I am not claiming any fame haha this is just the reality of the situation. To be honest I'm an introvert by nature and mostly keep to myself. It just seems people think they know me before they meet me, hence forth not taking the time to actually get to know me. This then brings up notions of who i should and shouldnt talk to and blah blah blah. I often just feel l need a fresh start.
Is it cliche to feel like i should be out doing charity work in a different country/continent? But then could i even handle such a venture? It seems that I lack the confidence to make a leap of faith. That being said I still need to leave winnipeg. My home life here is shit, this city does not have a whole lot left for me to take. I am debating on making the move to British Colombia. My mom recently moved out there and the majority of the family that actually talks to me is out there. As long as I can find work in my field it shouldn't really be an issue. Really would like to maybe leave the country and or continent though haha. Ah man I just have no idea what I am doing but I really need to do something.
Ah well, I'm going to head to the west coast and check it out. Maybe I'll find a reason to stay.