capnvik

Wow 2 months since the last post. I wish I was still excited about this site like I used to be but I'm just kinda meh. I remember when I used to post atleast weekly and if anythibng important happened this was the first place I'd tell. I just hope all my friends from this site don't think I'm meh about them. I have met some really awsome people from here and I hope to meet more. Caose damn it SG I just can't quit you. The last several weeks have been some some of the worse of my life. The good news is I've lost about 20 pounds sinse I've last posted. The bad news is I haven't tried to loose 20 pounds. It started about 6 weeks ago. I just noticed that my appitite has just dissapeared. I'd get hungry but just wouldn't feel like eating. Then at the beggining of April I started to notice a lump in my throat. It was not painful just uncomfortable. It even kept me from sleeping and would even affect my gag reflex at times. Now I useally would ignore something like that but I had just started having sex with a new girl and was woried that I might have an std. Cause even though I try to be safe and I'm a vegitarian there is stil;l one meat I eat . So I rush to my urgent care and he rules out the std and insist I have a procedure called a endoscopi(sp). There something there that should't be. So he referes me to a speciallist and says he has to see me within 2 days.(thats scary). I get an appointment with him on a friday and he says we need to do this right away and schedules the procedure for that Monday. So I heading home freaked out of my mind when I get this call and they tell they;re not covered by my hmo. My Fucking urgent care doctor sent me to the wrong place!!!! So I contact my primary doctor he referes me to the right guy but he can't see me for 2 weeks. Fuck!!! I'm totally freaking out. I've 2 doctors that have said I have do this right away but my fucking HMO is gonna take 2 weeks for me to see the endochonologist(sp) just to see if he concurs and will perform the procedure. So here I am freaking out about throat cancer wich my greatest nightmare. I talk for a living and at one time I used to be a quite popular singer in this town. SEE Anyways. I finally get the endoscopi which is when they put a camara down my throat. The doctor askes me if I have any questions and I tell him I don't untill afterwards. So they knock me out for about 15 minutes and take some biopsies of some troubled areas. I ask ofcorse a biopsy of what???? Is it a tumor.? Is it just a cyst? What the fuck are you doing a biopsy of. No one can tell me cause the doctor had left already. Damn it I was only out for 15 fucking minutes how could he have left. So I get more time to freek out. Atleast you get alot of attention from the chickies when you think you're dying. He atleast called me the next day and tells me I have a hiatal hernia. The bafd news he called me when I was on my way to work and about to go into the subway.and couldn't ask him any questions but told him to let me know when the biopsies come back, That was a week ago. Still haven't heard anything. I'm really gonna get on these guys asses tomorrow. I even had to check Webmd to find out what a fucking hiatal hernia was. Aparently my stomach is coming up my esophgus(sp). So it looks like I'm not dying I'm just gonna really be unconfortable. I still have to find out what we're going to do to fix it. I got some acid reducer medication even though I informed them that I haven't had any heartburn. I hope I learn somethinf when I contact these fuckers tomorrow.
In other news I just want to say what a great bar the Power House is in Hollywood is. They have all been concerned for me during this whole ordeal. In fact one the bartenders vollenteered to pick me up from the hospital after the endoscopi since they would not let me leave on my own.
I'm sure I'll post soon as I don't want to leave this bummer up for to long. Who knows who will see this though. I think prom is next weekend. Again I was just to meh to change my vacation to fit it in.hopefully it was better than the last so they'll have one next year. Hope to see all SGLA folks @ our monthly White Horse fiesta. I haven't been for a while. Got to see the peeps soon.
Sorry for the long rant. Much love to everyone.
TILLY