Ok this is a message to people who think I care about them. Cuz we all know deep down inside I'm really a selfish fuck. Despite what people tell you I am not sweet.
I've been away, and now that I'm back I'm seeing stuff that's getting me annoyed. A sane person would be worrying about you all, but I'm just pissed.
Christmas is coming, and more than half of the people on my friendslist are starting to talk funny. Now my friendslist aint that huge. It's basicly made up of people who are to naive to realize that I'm only in it for me. They have convinced themselves I'm some empathic hardass who really cares about them and wants the best for them. They think I'm a good listener and full of good advice or whatever the PC word is this week. Truth is I just want to sleep with them. Even you Mucci, you sexxy mangina you.
j/k
Back to the point. You are all pissing me off. You know who you are. So please do me a favor. Next time you think you are less or different than anything I've ever told you, please come find me so I can punch you. I'll buy you a beer after, but you need an asskicking. I have expectations of you all. I have read your posts for over a year and have sorted through the bullshit and gotten to know what you are all capable of. Life demands the best from you and so do I. Because the only time you aren't meeting my demands is when you get in your own way. Blaming life for throwing you a flaming ball of drama. BULLSHIT. Even if you lose, you can go down with respect, or honor. Lose gracefully. This wallowing BS annoys me. There's always tomorrow.
"Life is getting to hectic and dramatic to post here for a while."
Cry me a river. It is theraputic to write in a diary, or read, or take a long bath after a long day. It's called "Me-Time". It is impossible for it to be taken from you by anyone but yourself. And if you do then that's more harm than good. If someone reads your diary, buy a new one and hide it elsewhere. Move on.
You can stumble, you can fall. But I don't wanna hear that you cant get up. And with the holidays coming you will fall hard and often. We all do. I'm not delusional or wrong. If I think you can do it, then it can be done. End of discussion.
I left for 2 weeks to do work stuff, come back and everyone is suddenly incapable of handling stuff. Newsflash: life comes at you at fullspeed, 100%. Life is Existance. There is no cutting back on reality. SO if it's too much for you to handle, the weakness is in you, not the world. You can't get the mindset that you can tone down on life until you are better. You can't cut out your family, your friends, your whatevers so you have less to juggle. It doesn't work that way. Cuz it's easy to handle a pathetic life of staying home and talking to know one. You start trying to get back what you cut out and you realize you still cant handle it. Why? Because just like anything else you have to grow and evolve.
If there is a weight you can't lift you dont cut down to a ridiculously easy weight. You try everyday. Making it heavier everyday. Eventually you grow to be able to lift that weight. If you stick to easy weight for a year, a year later you still can't lift it.
I got to info on my life I want to update you all on, but this needed to be said. You aren't worrying me, you are pissing me off. I want to start seeing more possitive posts or I'm gonna snap. Even if its as simple as "Today kicked ass"
Expect a second post tomorrow.
I've been away, and now that I'm back I'm seeing stuff that's getting me annoyed. A sane person would be worrying about you all, but I'm just pissed.
Christmas is coming, and more than half of the people on my friendslist are starting to talk funny. Now my friendslist aint that huge. It's basicly made up of people who are to naive to realize that I'm only in it for me. They have convinced themselves I'm some empathic hardass who really cares about them and wants the best for them. They think I'm a good listener and full of good advice or whatever the PC word is this week. Truth is I just want to sleep with them. Even you Mucci, you sexxy mangina you.
j/k
Back to the point. You are all pissing me off. You know who you are. So please do me a favor. Next time you think you are less or different than anything I've ever told you, please come find me so I can punch you. I'll buy you a beer after, but you need an asskicking. I have expectations of you all. I have read your posts for over a year and have sorted through the bullshit and gotten to know what you are all capable of. Life demands the best from you and so do I. Because the only time you aren't meeting my demands is when you get in your own way. Blaming life for throwing you a flaming ball of drama. BULLSHIT. Even if you lose, you can go down with respect, or honor. Lose gracefully. This wallowing BS annoys me. There's always tomorrow.
"Life is getting to hectic and dramatic to post here for a while."
Cry me a river. It is theraputic to write in a diary, or read, or take a long bath after a long day. It's called "Me-Time". It is impossible for it to be taken from you by anyone but yourself. And if you do then that's more harm than good. If someone reads your diary, buy a new one and hide it elsewhere. Move on.
You can stumble, you can fall. But I don't wanna hear that you cant get up. And with the holidays coming you will fall hard and often. We all do. I'm not delusional or wrong. If I think you can do it, then it can be done. End of discussion.
I left for 2 weeks to do work stuff, come back and everyone is suddenly incapable of handling stuff. Newsflash: life comes at you at fullspeed, 100%. Life is Existance. There is no cutting back on reality. SO if it's too much for you to handle, the weakness is in you, not the world. You can't get the mindset that you can tone down on life until you are better. You can't cut out your family, your friends, your whatevers so you have less to juggle. It doesn't work that way. Cuz it's easy to handle a pathetic life of staying home and talking to know one. You start trying to get back what you cut out and you realize you still cant handle it. Why? Because just like anything else you have to grow and evolve.
If there is a weight you can't lift you dont cut down to a ridiculously easy weight. You try everyday. Making it heavier everyday. Eventually you grow to be able to lift that weight. If you stick to easy weight for a year, a year later you still can't lift it.
I got to info on my life I want to update you all on, but this needed to be said. You aren't worrying me, you are pissing me off. I want to start seeing more possitive posts or I'm gonna snap. Even if its as simple as "Today kicked ass"
Expect a second post tomorrow.
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