Wanna here something ammusing? Be warned this entire is post is sorta a self directed pep talk. And also one of those times where you wanna tell someone off but they already left. So your stuck yelling at a mirror, or your iron, or forum site. SO be prepared. Cuz just as usual this is gonna be a very odd ride into how I see things and if it doesn't make sense, it's ok. Cuz it really doesnt make sense to sane people. Here goes.
My life sucks.
I dont suck. I'm not insecure, or cocky. I'm not clingy or a loner. I, as a whole, am a kick ass piece of abstract art that no one understands, but it works and people love it and can't get enuff of it.
My life sucks all on it's own without any help from a personality problem or lack of pills to make me happy. My life is riddled with conflict: bills, ethical dilemas, karmatic backlash, defining moments, acts of god <splash>, crickets, an automobile that treats me a lot better than the world and I treat it, fist fights, lil events where people wanna hit me and i dont wanna hit them, 1 evil exgirlfriend, 1 crazy dramatic, yet fairly harmless exgirlfriend, really bitter Providence cops, an entire decade and personality that I am trying everyday to forget I lived, and a constant ability to creep myself out regularly with answers to questions I haven't even asked.
Yes it really sux. And amazingly I wake up and am a tad excited to live it. It may be a ridiculously sucky life, but it's mine. The unique details of it reflect on me and who I am. Cuz those cliche sucky lives out there goodnever achieve this. So many people whining about how their job sucks and they can't get laid.
Everyones life sux. So it's impractical to complain about the status quo.
But does your life suck originaly? Uniquely? Are you a special case?
If you have a wife who wants alimoni, big whoop. But what if she was 16 and lived in Cuba? Now that is unique. And it shows you obviously had some kinda adventure. Nice job.
The point is that I consider myself to have 2 very unique gifts. 1) Is that I am, in all honestly and seriousness, a tiny bit crazy. 2) is a very special and private secret. One that if I told you, you wouldn't believe. But at the same time it would explain so much. The negative is that they cause some very unique problems in my life. And if I was anyone but me, I'd prolly be pushed over the edge by now. So in the end I'm happy. Cuz all this hell, just reminds me, and makes me proud.
PS: A lil question for the kiddies: When was the last time you didn't take a "leap of faith" based on your own gut feeling?
My life sucks.
I dont suck. I'm not insecure, or cocky. I'm not clingy or a loner. I, as a whole, am a kick ass piece of abstract art that no one understands, but it works and people love it and can't get enuff of it.
My life sucks all on it's own without any help from a personality problem or lack of pills to make me happy. My life is riddled with conflict: bills, ethical dilemas, karmatic backlash, defining moments, acts of god <splash>, crickets, an automobile that treats me a lot better than the world and I treat it, fist fights, lil events where people wanna hit me and i dont wanna hit them, 1 evil exgirlfriend, 1 crazy dramatic, yet fairly harmless exgirlfriend, really bitter Providence cops, an entire decade and personality that I am trying everyday to forget I lived, and a constant ability to creep myself out regularly with answers to questions I haven't even asked.
Yes it really sux. And amazingly I wake up and am a tad excited to live it. It may be a ridiculously sucky life, but it's mine. The unique details of it reflect on me and who I am. Cuz those cliche sucky lives out there goodnever achieve this. So many people whining about how their job sucks and they can't get laid.
Everyones life sux. So it's impractical to complain about the status quo.
But does your life suck originaly? Uniquely? Are you a special case?
If you have a wife who wants alimoni, big whoop. But what if she was 16 and lived in Cuba? Now that is unique. And it shows you obviously had some kinda adventure. Nice job.
The point is that I consider myself to have 2 very unique gifts. 1) Is that I am, in all honestly and seriousness, a tiny bit crazy. 2) is a very special and private secret. One that if I told you, you wouldn't believe. But at the same time it would explain so much. The negative is that they cause some very unique problems in my life. And if I was anyone but me, I'd prolly be pushed over the edge by now. So in the end I'm happy. Cuz all this hell, just reminds me, and makes me proud.
PS: A lil question for the kiddies: When was the last time you didn't take a "leap of faith" based on your own gut feeling?
thetotalm:
wow..that totally blows away my crappy life..thanks for making me feel better....but hopefully I'll have some fantastic stories someday too...leap of faith is everyday I wake up. 