so for the first time in a long time, my caturday is actually a saturday! 
...granted i still gotta be at work at 6am tomorrow..but hey, no cranky opera people for me today!
so i have alot of cleanin to do in the kitchen but i don't wanna....we had our holiday party at work yesterday & i did some serious baking for it....2 cakes, brownies, muffins, & 2 kindsa cookies...twas nice to be dancin with my inner betty in the kitchen again....i feel i don't do that enough lately, to the point that i was a lil exasperated when i first got started cuz i felt kinda outta practice...but it all evened out...i do need to spend more time in the kitchen cuz it's fun for me & kinda relaxes me even though it kinda stresses me at times too...
i been doin the basic human conditioned thing lately of reflectin back on the last year as the current one draws to the close...i feel like i have changed alot in the last few years but specifically this one has been odd....i've grown up alot
...which i never really wanted to do 
....i've got alot of great things in my life but i hide away the fact that i still fight with my evil monster posse much more than i'd ever care to admitt...i despise time for there's never ever enough of it....and self-doubt plagues me more than it ever had...it seems i have lost alot of my confidence...not in my abilities at work or things like that for the most part, but in me in general... i seem paraniod & super-sensitive alot...almost like a girl ...it's kinda disturbin to consider who i used to be in comparision to this & i know i must change...the old me wouldn't even be friends with this chick 
...not really that any me has ever truly had alot of friends since leavin home...and twas hard to find those i left behind indeed...i must make more friends...i must find my strength....anxiety has been another strange bedfellow that's been too frequent as of late...she is one specifically that i must banish more than all the others...i could ramble on & on here but i don't wanna be a downer...for tis not what i am...i'm quite pleased with my life...
i've decided to pick a random letter & tell you things that start with it which make me happy....i'll leave the random to guy smiley...
...granted i still gotta be at work at 6am tomorrow..but hey, no cranky opera people for me today!so i have alot of cleanin to do in the kitchen but i don't wanna....we had our holiday party at work yesterday & i did some serious baking for it....2 cakes, brownies, muffins, & 2 kindsa cookies...twas nice to be dancin with my inner betty in the kitchen again....i feel i don't do that enough lately, to the point that i was a lil exasperated when i first got started cuz i felt kinda outta practice...but it all evened out...i do need to spend more time in the kitchen cuz it's fun for me & kinda relaxes me even though it kinda stresses me at times too...
i been doin the basic human conditioned thing lately of reflectin back on the last year as the current one draws to the close...i feel like i have changed alot in the last few years but specifically this one has been odd....i've grown up alot
...which i never really wanted to do ....i've got alot of great things in my life but i hide away the fact that i still fight with my evil monster posse much more than i'd ever care to admitt...i despise time for there's never ever enough of it....and self-doubt plagues me more than it ever had...it seems i have lost alot of my confidence...not in my abilities at work or things like that for the most part, but in me in general... i seem paraniod & super-sensitive alot...almost like a girl ...it's kinda disturbin to consider who i used to be in comparision to this & i know i must change...the old me wouldn't even be friends with this chick ...not really that any me has ever truly had alot of friends since leavin home...and twas hard to find those i left behind indeed...i must make more friends...i must find my strength....anxiety has been another strange bedfellow that's been too frequent as of late...she is one specifically that i must banish more than all the others...i could ramble on & on here but i don't wanna be a downer...for tis not what i am...i'm quite pleased with my life...i've decided to pick a random letter & tell you things that start with it which make me happy....i'll leave the random to guy smiley...
and in random order...
Eggplant
Ents
Efficiency
Erogenous zones
Excitement
Eels
Entertainment
Earmuffs
Eating
Eccentricity
Espresso
Expression
Electricity...as long as i'm not conducting it
so there's a few....i's gonna shower & try to spend time with my lovely puppy....tis now your turn to add an E to the list kids....
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darqkloud:
Hope you had a great Caterday!
tallboy66:
Eggnog.