so i'm still waitin on the madness at work to subside & this whole damned ordeal makes me really question keepin the damn job...i'm good at it, that's a given...hells, i'm fuckin awesome at it...but i've done this shit for soo long that if i weren't you oughta shoot me...the money's not terrible...i have the coolest boss in the world...but i hate corporate bullshit....i want pink & orange hair...i wants piercings & ink galore...but the man keeps me down...i'd instantly lose my job if i followed through with such yearnings, which i've had for the past 8 years...when i had my brief stint as a money slave in a room by myself, i was just about to go for a few piercings when i was informed that they were downsizing then i was offered to come here...i feel kinda trapped by the whole thing...i know i'm here in chicago for another year & i'm about to get serious in researchin what i wanna do when we leave here & move on...i hate settlin but at least maybe i'll feel better in lookin forward to the future...
don't, by any means, take the above to mean that i am unhappy....i am, as all of us prolly are, unhappy with work...if it weren't meant to make us unhappy i think it'd be called somethin other than work....i love our new apt even if it has it's issues...the oven has been a nightmare but i think that tis now about ready for use...there are other small things that suck, but hey, tisn't the ghetto & there's lovely things nearby that give me a warm fuzzy feelin....my puppy makes me ever sooooo happy....i feel super lucky to have him... ...there's plenty to do here for fun...i've met some awesome local peeps here from the site & look forward to meetin even more...
i think it'd be awesome to find a lady friend...maybe even just one to go thriftin with me, watch movies, enjoy espresso, & such....granted, it'd be much more awesome if we could do naughty things together too...but i've given up on such....
i'm bored...& a lil lonely at the moment...
and now i'm gonna go lay in bed & watch something i suppose...until next time...
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rockstargirl52:
Double Door is having a big bash too. I might go there. Good bands, and fun costumes!
girlysound:
holy shit! i just had an idea if i can swing it. I won't be home for thanksgiving but I will be for christmas, for awhile (well a couple weeks) there is a jeff koons show in chicago and i totally want to go! visit? we should work on this. hope you are well darlin!