candykydfairy

*sighs*....well yesterday was the birthday of someone insanely special and important to me....and i did everything i could to make it a wonderful day, i just hope they thought it was such....i made a cake...had lovely gifts in a spiffy bag that i decorated with some awesome pirate stickers & such...and i found the most perfect birthday card ever...even though i spent the day waiting, it was wonderful cuz i was comfortable & content in where i was...sometimes it truly doesn't take much to make me happy, it's the lil things...i hope i am not a thing to be settled for and a cause for contentment all in myself....i still never seem to escape work.....ever....and it's getting old fast.....i still seek girl fun but i am no longer tryin and hope it just falls in my lap ...there are changes i want to make in my life but am afraid to due to the comfortable familiarity i've held all along in these arenas...but this level of comfortable wears thin and exposes an underlying irritation that keeps me from the things i want and the things that make me happy...startin over is never easy to do and admittin that one has clung fast for far too long to the only stable thing in their life for all the wrong reasons is even harder...this safety blanket of mine has brought me many places, taught me many things, & led me to some of the greatest things i've ever known...do i give it up?...do i move on?...do i move in?....am i truly wanted?....the plague of mind is evil yet not one i would ever want to shake for it's what makes me truly me...