Part I
We try to control life because we think it will establish an order we desire. But control does not create order. Conversely, it generates tension and chaos. Let go and let life arrange itself naturally.
Part II
No one outside yourself can give you anything of value. Be alive to yourself in all your joys and grief. Harsh reality...
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Renovated Bungalow
Freedom
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After losing my temp job on Friday, I spent the rest of the weekend getting shit-faced... staying up til 6 am, watching as the sun peeked over the pier and sunlight bathed the trees in morning, while I painfully nursed myself back to sanity from a wild night of well-needed debauchery. I just needed the R&R if you will -...
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You look all hedonistic and nihilistic in that photo.
Do you ever go to sunshine co? I went there a few days ago.
You only lost a temp job? C'mon... temp jobs suck.
I wouldn't worry about it.
How about a pro-freakazoid?
I am genuinely hurt.
Hope you are doing well.
lmh
UPDATE: I'm doing ok. I was feeling sooo damn shitty last night though. Drowned my sorrows in liquor and cigarettes. Then I had a horrible nightmare about my job. Err... ex-job. Man, just when I think things are getting better, life SHITS ALL OVER ME. Gah. It's my karma, I know it.
this...
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Doh! That sucks. Sorry
Detonation -- Nine-thousand pounds of explosives -- Unreeling the cord.
A crazed mexican scrambling in the desert dust on all fours. Shots fired into the air.
Bottles of hot sauce.
Ay muthafuckin curamba!
Everything is empty and exploding at once, on fire.
Looking out from a furnace.
The grace of losing concern
the freedom of destruction.
Yeah...
It's all metaphorical and shit.
We dare to drink in the flames of desire.
Yet the man makes you clean up the soggy ember remnants.
As you lie in last night's damp firepit,
it's only your smudged face,
the coarse wet grit grinding in your teeth,
left to instruct you.
Every day is an empty question mark.
I sat on a fine burgundy leather couch.
The coffee table had an intricate pattern of swastikas set in tile.
I was offered a cup of coffee in a tiny cup.
The thickness of the glass ashtray distorted the images of the pornographic cartoon magazines underneath.
My eyes were steady on the building code addendum.
Sanskrit instructions on mountain traversal.
Nowadays I'm waking up on the beach.
My face is always sunburnt.
I drink beer while wading in the ocean.
I identify with the hermit crabs by the rock where I loiter.
My personal assistant left town, so it's back to the bus.
The freeway underpass is wrinkling my suits.
I've found a carwash where I can bathe.
I'm always sure to leave the valet a five dollar tip.
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we eat reality sandwiches."
- ginsberg-
hi
i like this wild and extravagant experience you've got going here
quotation from burroughs
name-link to your personal phantasmagoria,
beatific girl
a pleasure
zh
The painting made me appreciate the poetry a lot more. His painting are tripped out too. In this case it's the inspiration that's more important than the technique, even that's good too.
Art is what makes it all worthwhile.
Otherwise we'd just be like termites struggling for food supply.
See, even though we like animals. They're actually pretty dumb.
If you show a squirell a painting he just looks for a nut or something, but if you a show a stoned hippy a painting they go, "wow... dude".
Check out
astro.com and get a full reading. That shit is interesting.
I'm a Libra sun, Cancer moon among other things.
[Edited on Sep 09, 2005 3:01AM]
First Sicily leaves, and I just found out that Dusty's left now too. I loved their sets so much. Sicily wrote such intense and interesting entries, and Dusty always had such a killer sense of humor. They were two of the reasons I joined this site in the first place.
Coi on my friends list...
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i like the new pics!
When you get an answer, it's time to hang up the phone.
~ Timothy Leary
sorry your job is so dull. i'd trade if i could. so do you work full time then?... since you don't have time for school.
anyways... have a good one, and remember to smile.
How are you doing?
Hey, I'll give you a chance to read some older journal entries because it's easier than writing new ones.
This is about some dreams I had earlier this year
This is some silly ass bullshit
Hope you're doing allright. You seem kind of troubled from that last entry. It looks like you're going through a transition. Yeah, me too.
I can pull out some poems proper if you don't mind later.
Are those your own quotes? I really like that.
I know all kinds of books you might be interested in.
Rather than rehash old journal entries here, I'll just give out links if you want to check it out.
Volume I
Volume II
I dig your feedback. Thanks
[Edited on Sep 16, 2005 9:42PM]