i'm sorry that you are hurting...i am out of work (i left my job as psych tech manager of a rehab because i was too stressed out) and slipping into depression and unfortunately have gotten money from my parents to pay for my bills/rent this month, which, in combination with my depression, drives my self-esteem into the shitter...i am glad i can do this, but i also feel like i am not a man, but a child (at best)...i have totally sold out in that respect (and the fact that i am bipolar and this keeps flaring up due to external stimulus such as work/leaving work/seasonal/etc. makes me feel even more defective/useless.) I do not mean to compare myself to the feelings or the situation you are going through though, just letting it out and chatting to a fellow friend who's struggling...please be careful and take care of yourself and let me know if there is anything i can do.
chris
p.s. of something is tearing you up inside that bad, maybe it is not for you. there has to be another way.
let me know how the tat turns out.
i'm still working on the specifics of it. it's going to be a shoulder piece though(left).........it sounds good in my head, we'll see though.
have a good night lil lady.
chris
p.s. of something is tearing you up inside that bad, maybe it is not for you. there has to be another way.