camy

I woke up in the morning really bad , dreamed the whole night about how I was thirsty and drinking a lot of glasses of cold water one after another. There were a gun somewhere, now that I came to think about it, but it was on a pocket of a jacket that I don't fucking know who it belongs.

Anyway, woke up feeling nausea and when I tried to drink water I almost puke. Didn't ate the whole day, not hungry at all, smoked a ton of cigars (because the weed is over) and was feeling really bad, and sad because I miss my husband (who is not with me in the city), I need money and I can't get a job. It's becoming really difficult to pay bills and such, so, to conclude, i was feeling like shit.

My friend message me asking me to go out with her, but I wasn't on the mood. I coulnd't stand myself, I wasn't able of seeing anyone, I wished only to stay in bed all day. After she insisted, I said I would go, but I wasn't really sure yet.

Then we started arguing, for the most ridiculous topic ever. But i won't get in any details because I don't want to expose the person. In the end, she got really mad at me, I said I wouldn't go out like that, with her, because I didn't wanna fight. I just needed a break, that's all. But I couldn't give her what she wanted, because 1 - i didn't have it anymore and 2 - i don't have any money.

And then was it. She got mad and blocked me everywhere. I must be a really horrible person.

It's really sad that I'm not a friend anymore because of a stupid thing. And what gets me even sad is that she is talking bad things about me behind my back, and I never would do anything like that. Even if we are not friends anymore.

Anyways, although is sad to me being in this situation, I will forgive her and wish her happiness and success in her life.

I just hope she can be a mature woman and accept this as a polite end.

Farewell, my dear.