January 07th, 2017
Well, I'm a few days late, but that day was my surgery anniversary. It's been 3 years now, and I will show you my before pictures for you to see... I will expose my most private past only because I know that I can help someone with this sharing.
That was not about pride or self steem. It was about health issues.I already said something about that in my first blog, introductions
I had battled through weight loss since I was 13 years old. My mom used to take me to the doctor and he prescribed a lot of pills for me to control my hunger and I would spent the next month not wanting to eat anything and highly disturbed psychologically. Then, after I lost the weight that was, in fact, a problem to my mother (to be honest, because I was only a chubby girl passing through teenager years), I would stop the medicine and then gain back everything that I had lost and more. This went on for about 10 or 15 years in my life.
When I got 20, I've started drinking, and anphetamine with alcohool is no good at all. I would totally black out at parties or be higly stressed at home and with anyone who cared about me.
I had about 23 years now, then went to another doctor and he told me to stop with that or my kidneys would stop. I got shocked and scared. Had to stop.
But then, the years got by and I became gaining more and more weight. I wasn't feeling well with myself, I can assure you that, but worst of all, I was getting sick.
It started with my spine. Pain everyday and I discovered cervical nerve clamping, who made my hands numb.... It started with numb fingers, then it went through hands and arms. Every night I had to woke up and do exercises to regain my arms and back to sleep. And it hurted a lot. I started doing physiotherapy and then I started researching about the gastric surgery.
Before that, my father had the same surgery some years before. I went to his doctor, but he wouldn't realize the surgery because I wasn't heavy enough, so he indicated me one of his friends, to put a gastric baloon and see if I could lose some weight. Wrong. I ended spending a lot of money, didn't lose the 10% percent off my weight as expected and after taking it out, I only got even bigger.
I was suffering from high blood pressure, sleep apnea, cholesterol, triglycerides, high glucose and almost diabetic. I could not look at myself in the mirror, I could not walk more than 30 minutes, I could not tie my fucking shoes and of course I wasn't able to make sex , not only because I was ashamed of myself, but because I didn't have physical condition for that.
So, after one whole year of exams, doctors, psychological meetings and a lot of online research, I decided to go through with it. And I must say, It was the best decision of my life.
Yes, it is though at the beggining. I did my surgery during summer and you cannot imagine how awful it is to feel thirsty and not being able to drink water anytime I wanted. I spent three days at the hospital, but when I came back to my house I started the whole coffee cup diet (I was only able to drink 25ml of anything each 30 minutes, and my options were to take water, coconut water, gatorade, jelly, vegetable meat or bean broth, with almost no condiments - I must say that I skipped a lot of these "lunches" to drink only water). And this diet dured 15 days. Then I went through semi-pasty, pasty, kneaded or shredded and then returned to the normal diet, but in small amounts (around 150 grams of food, each 3 hours, 6 times a day). No sugar, no oil, no coffee or pepper till I get to 6 months of surgery. No alcoohol or any kind of soda through this period. The lack of pepper was the worst for me, I must say, because the other restrictions I was used to because I had to cut them out 3 months before surgery.
But it was all worthy. I was getting slimmer everyday. I was getting my happiness and my self confidence back. I was able to look myself in the mirror again and just loved the whole transition. And I anyone asks me about, I will say: do it. It was one of the best things I ever did in my entire life.
And now, 3 years later, I need to get back and focus on my health. I forget about that for some time and relaxed, and now I'm paying for that. We really need to take care of our health, life is amazing and we need to live the fullest ever!
Now, the before pictures. Warning, it's graphic and it doesn't look anything like me.
Thanks everyone who took their time to read this. And if anyone need advices or want to talk about this subject, please reach out to me. I will gladly help.
And, like always, thanks @missy and @rambo .
xoxo
