Going through old photos and I found this picture when Ghani was just a few months old (if that), back in 2004.
It was very cold this morning, at least for here. Around 20°F so I bundled up accordingly including my heavier balaclava. For some reason people find this disturbing and think I’m some paramilitary psycho serial killer but the animals (except for deer) find me interesting and want to get closer. Case in point. Today’s run in with the moose. After she got over the strange...
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I wish I could stop thinking about her. I can't. Times of quiet, my mind slips back to wondering, thinking, daydreaming. My pulse quickens. My body gets warmer. I find myself breathing faster. I feel cornered. Trapped. The walls closing in on me again. The darkness and terror that once plagued me threatening to break back in. I can't let myself respond. I am stronger...
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At peace
4-11-15
Heaven and Earth
2-4-15
I haven't much felt like going out lately so here's a summer flashback, re-imagined.
I went over to Tacoma for reasons and had some extra time on my hands so a short little adventure around Point Defiance was in order.
Two things happened today that were kind of world shattering for me. First, I was diagnosed with severe generalized anxiety disor and depression. Second, as a mutual agreement, my girlfriend and I broke up today (while I waited to see the doctor). Things have not been going well for me. It's my hope that now I can keep moving forward towards a better me. That...
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Winter has set in and my moods have gotten out of control. I purchased one of those light therapy lamps and started using it yesterday. I think it's working. I don't feel as down and morose as before, even smiling more for no reason in particular. Taking more steps tomorrow to get help, I can't keep living like this and ruining my relationships with people....
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Today I went back to Liberty Lake. Most of the other places I usually go to are inaccessible because of the snow. While things didn't go entirely as hoped it wasn't a bad day. My car did get stuck on the hill going out. If it weren't for the mail carrier that drove by right then, things could have gone a lot worse. Thankfully he...
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