I wanna get started on my chestpiece today, but I'm not completely sure what it is that I want!
In light of recent events, as well as my entire life, I think it would be fitting to get a pin-cushion heart. I was thinking of a doing a pin for every man who's ever broken my heart: My biological father, the guy who raped me, Marek (who left me for Seattle), Jason (who would have rather believed other people's bullshit than the word of his love), Michael (the most recent asshole.)
Granted, over the years I'll be collecting a lot of pins!!!
Have you guys got any ideas for an awesome chestpiece, maybe something I could add on to that?
You'll be happy to know that I moved out yesterday. I took EVERYTHING I had ever bought for the house. Dishes, cups, utensils, shower curtain, wall art, the computer desk, and my bed, not to mention basic bathroom necessities like shampoo, conditioner, toothpaste, etc.
I got dinner last night with my friend KC. Then we went to the mall and I bought a bunch of shit. I bought a skirt and a t-shirt from Davey Havok's new clothing line, rightfully titled "Glitterboy." It's actually pretty fuckin' sweet.
I bought a new bra, panties, earrings, a new blouse for work...and it made me feel better, which is strange because I hate shopping normally.
I saw a movie, then went to Denny's and ate a juicy steak! I feel like a human being again...I'm eating!!!
I had a lot of fun last night. I cut loose, acted silly, and it was then I realized that I had changed so much for that asshole. I was so concerned about his well-being and his happiness, that I often times forgot about my own. I forgot to be an individual.
So, yeah. After work today I'm going to spend more money.
Yayyyyy for freedom!
(And I didn't even cry myself to sleep last night!)
In light of recent events, as well as my entire life, I think it would be fitting to get a pin-cushion heart. I was thinking of a doing a pin for every man who's ever broken my heart: My biological father, the guy who raped me, Marek (who left me for Seattle), Jason (who would have rather believed other people's bullshit than the word of his love), Michael (the most recent asshole.)
Granted, over the years I'll be collecting a lot of pins!!!
Have you guys got any ideas for an awesome chestpiece, maybe something I could add on to that?
You'll be happy to know that I moved out yesterday. I took EVERYTHING I had ever bought for the house. Dishes, cups, utensils, shower curtain, wall art, the computer desk, and my bed, not to mention basic bathroom necessities like shampoo, conditioner, toothpaste, etc.
I got dinner last night with my friend KC. Then we went to the mall and I bought a bunch of shit. I bought a skirt and a t-shirt from Davey Havok's new clothing line, rightfully titled "Glitterboy." It's actually pretty fuckin' sweet.
I bought a new bra, panties, earrings, a new blouse for work...and it made me feel better, which is strange because I hate shopping normally.
I saw a movie, then went to Denny's and ate a juicy steak! I feel like a human being again...I'm eating!!!
I had a lot of fun last night. I cut loose, acted silly, and it was then I realized that I had changed so much for that asshole. I was so concerned about his well-being and his happiness, that I often times forgot about my own. I forgot to be an individual.
So, yeah. After work today I'm going to spend more money.
Yayyyyy for freedom!
(And I didn't even cry myself to sleep last night!)
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i am so glad you are feeling and doing better!!!
[Edited on Jul 12, 2005 11:55PM]
But if you do, then don't do the pin cushion heart. All these men who cut you and left their mark on you -- why wear that mark where everyone can see it? Don't do it.