calvintied

A little sad. I just became single again. it was a good run and there were good times.

just filling the day with nonsense

Sorry for the long span not saying anything. I'm still hopping on at times to check out what is going on. I just went through having my girlfriend move in and well there has been a lot of fucking and talking about reorganizing the place. At least we aren't talking about fucking and actually doing all that reorganizing. I guess it will happen eventually. Things...
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A suggestion of monogamy of late. It seems inconvenient, but I do admire this woman.

So many thoughts, and yeta distinct feeling of happiness. I am perhaps insane to consider this, but I don't think anyone is keeping score.

What a crazy day. Feeling a little more surreal today than the usual, but all in all a little confused and content. I have to remember that life is a work in progress. nothing happens right away, and there is no reset button or turbo switch. Contentment is still a fantasy, and those that don't take risks, don't live the where with all. Or something...
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Well we start all over again, and then again. Call me a whore if you will, but we do what we have to in order to get by. I sleep sound at night sticking to the standards I keep for myself, but everyday it starts over again. The standards you keep for yourself are always changing. I guess the real question is what can you...
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Yesterday was a flop. Aggrivation with the usual day is nothing new. What motivates people today? The motivation for food, water, air, shelter, and sex seem to take second place to something all together different.

Maybe it is the same, and the translation of others behaviors is in question. I know that the embarassment is a factor, and pride is a poison to normal relationships,...
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Sometimes it seems like the world can not get anymore predictable, but experience dictates reason in this. When you can call how every day is going to be by just seeing how it starts, then what is the reason to start it at all. A life of unpredictabiity is a blessing and a curse. I've lived them both I know.

This probably comes from watching...
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ok i've been a couple of days pretty sketchy on an internet connection, so you will have to put up with this. No far reaching words of wisdom here.

Attitude. I need to work on mine. I don't know quite how to go on it though. cheery misdemeanor is nice in most facets, but I think that requires an optomistic attitude, and that just ain't...
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Alright I'm on my fourth random hookup since the break up and things are still a little confusing. I do want a relationship, but it has not started to occur yet. I see impossible relationships all around, so either I'm dating the wrong women, or I am sabotaging these things on a subconscious level.

Initial results are inconclusive. More data needs to be collected.

From...
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