callxmexmorbid

OH SHIT... LOOK WHOS BACK.

[ mood | bored ]
[ music | Joy Division - She's Lost Control ]

I'm so bored, but I have so much I SHOULD be doing.

depression kills motivation.

I'm not whining,.. It's just that time of year,.. the winter is usually depressing in Seattle. But you say 'it's 80 out and sunny today Shane!'... yeah... even worse. Heat = grumpy Shane.

And I guess it's not that I am even really depressed,.. It's that I have no money to do the projects and things I want to do,... hence why I am starting work again this week,... which is fucking lame since work takes away most of my time, so now I have some money... but not enough time...

Plus I have a bunch of blank shirts that need to get screened with designs so I can sell them to make some money so I can buy MORE shirts to make MORE designs.. etc.. etc.. etc..

Hopefully this whole makeup thing will fall into place, then I will be happy and have money and time to take care of the things I want to do (like buy a million books and CD's, and posters that I have been eyeing forever...)

Also, this girl that I sorta know through mutual people, is trying to get me a job doing photography/makeup with models... I guess her family owns/runs some sort of major agency and she says I would make a fuck load of money, which would obviously be good.

You can say how money isn't everything.. but right now it is.

no job. no home.

I don't know what made me poorer.. being on tour.. or being home..

I've been home for ALMOST 2 weeks, and I already want out. There are too many people that I desperately need to see...

My dear Maggie...
KATIE!! (BEAT IT!, Bacon, Blackmail pictures of Casey...)
xCASE ONEx
OC/LA Band Friends

And I would really like to paint some pictures for a pair of sisters in California that I promised I would.. and it would be really good to see both of them anyways..

.Shane.