Monday again! Not that it means anything to me. I have decided that I am not a very tolerant person, not that I really ever thought that I was before, but it's confirmed now. With all of the shit that I'm going through medically, that I can still get it together enough to get up and take care of myself and go to school and to go out on the weekends with my boyfriend. I have a friend that had nothing wrong, her life is good, her family is good, her health is perfect, everything is great, but for some unknown reason she can get her ass off the couch and do something. I understand depression... I have had 4 shoulder surgeries and over 50 procedures for a nerve disease that I have and if I didn't have a boyfriend and family that cared about me and would be affected if I were gone I probably would have given up a long time ago... but for me that's not a option and neither is torturing them with a 'poor me' attitude. I have to be positive and keep it together for them. I can't be short tempered and rude just because I feel like shit and am in pain that I can't even put into words. So this friend of mine has become rude, short tempered, a total shut in and totaly uncomfprtable to be around and I just feel like giving her one day in my shoes to learn what it like to take what she has for granted. There are so many things that she could be doing that I can't and want to be doing and she just lays there watching the same channel on tv all day long, for days at a time. I want to help her, but the more that this goes on the more that I want to just shake her and ask her what the fuck is her problem and if it's really that bad go jump off a fucking bridge!!! Save everyone else the misery!
This my friends is why I am not a therapist. All of my clients would be dead. So I hope that everyone had a great weekend and heah.... Have a wonderful week!
As a wise person once said "don't give the fucker the satisfaction!"