"Hi, my name is Calina and I am an addict."-
I am a faithful addict to music. Music has always played such an important and influential part in my life. Music has been my instrument in life for it has seen me through everything. I think I have experienced every possible emotion known to man through music: sadness, happiness, elation, lust, anger, envy, anxiety, rejuvenation. And, I have been through countless experiences via musical journeys of various sorts including death, masterbation, sex, meditation, exercise and sleep. In fact, it is hardly ever quiet around me. I am constantly engulfed in some aural stimulation that is befitting to my particular mood at the time. There is music for every occasion and for every emotion. I listen to opera, classical, choral, ambient, trip-hop, cinema scores, gospel choir, celtic, new age, jazz, latin, rock, goth, industrial, hard rock, some country, some pop, some rap, some R&B, soul, trance, ethereal, house, progressive, indie, rare grooves, old skool, decades (50's+), electronic, ebm.... damn, I listen to it all. More importantly, within each specific genre and subgenre there is something so significantly beautiful and something so specific that sets each of them apart. It's like I can easily love each type of music for what it is. There is some sort of beauty underneath it all and in everything.
It's like, when I listen to music, I really fucking listen to it. I become the music. I imagine the way it would look on sheet music. I imagine the notes and the chords. It gets in my head. It bounces between each ear and my head is swarming with the sounds of aural excellence. There is so much going on in the music. It's like, I cannot hear just one note. I hear several notes. It's almost like I can hear several notes within one note. That's where I get the idea of "blankets of notes". A song or a track or a musical piece is exactly that. There are the notes one sees on the sheet music, but within those notes are other notes. I hear those notes, too. When I hear those notes, I begin to see them all scattered about but neatly placed where they would belong on this sort of mural of one gigantic, endless piece of sheet music. It's really quite fucking beautiful.
For 7 years, I was a member of Honor Choir. Those were some of the best times of my life. My relationship with music just blossomed to no extent. Honor Choir taught me a lot. It has helped me tremendously now as both a musician and a DJ (and an apsiring producer). I started out in the voice part of second alto. But, when I auditioned for the first time in 6th grade, I remember my music teacher telling me that I had a keen ear for harmony. Like, I could pick up any chord or any harmony or other voice part and sing it. As a result, I was always the "floater". I was always the one that would fill in whereever more of a certain voice part was needed. So, I went from second alto and then to first alto. Then, I did a jump from first alto all the way to first soprano. And, from there I continued to float from first alto to second soprano to first soprano. Once, I was even the only girl to sing in the male honor choir! I sang the first tenor part of a most beautiful accapella version of "Ave Maria" by Franz Biebl. It broke into about a 4 or 5 male voice part and it is so enchanting it makes me cry. Not only did I teach the tenors the actual tenor part, but I actually joined them on stage to perform it for All-State.
Yeah, Honor Choir was simply amazing. I went to All-State and to Carnegie Hall and we did several other performances and competitions.
Being that I was a member of several Honor Choirs, that helped to develop my ears even more. By singing numerous voice parts, whenever I listened to music, I was constantly picking out the different harmonies and voice parts. I was always listening for the higher octaves and the lower octaves and even the descants and the dissonance of music. I never really realized, until now, that with my extensive background and appreciation for music and by always listening to music the way that I have, it has helped me and inspired me tremendously with all of my endeavors.
Some of my friends think I have a problem. The way I talk about music like I am in love or obsessed or something, makes them look at me weird but they know it's cool, because "I'm that girl". I'm that girl that gets new music everyday. I'm that girl that shares music with everyone. I'm that girl that makes cd's for everyone. I'm that girl that shows everyone the therapeautic qualities that music contains. I'm that girl that teaches others different ways of hearing and appreciating music. I'm that girl that has about 9 or more different styles of music on her playlist and will blare it loud while you think I am a fucking schizo or multi-personality. And, I"m that girl that can find any song for you even if you don't know the name. Just hum the melody...
One more thing, I use music as a way to reach people. Music is great for that. Music is like the main essential element of life. Music is life. It's the air we breath and the notes are the particles. They are the atoms and the electrons. They are the blankets and waves.
I have this cd of mine that I titled "Places I Go... (and the Voices I Hear...)". It is basically a compilation of some rare stuff and some stuff you may have heard. But, have put it a certain transcendental order. I have also crossfaded it with a program on the computer so it's like a constant journey. This compilation actually helped my mom to understand me better. Upon hearing it the first time, she asked me, "Damn, I wonder what really goes on in your head sometimes? I want to know what you think about." I have handed this cd out to about 7 people. The feedback has been phenomenal. People have cried. People have been deep in thought. And, each of them has told me that they have either played the cd in their office in moments when they needed to relax, or they have at least fallen asleep to it. But, everyone has asked about the selections and where I got some of them. It truly touched them and that is what is important.
I am currently working on the second edition of my personal project, and I also intend on dispensing several more copies of the first one. I am actually working on really spicing even the first edition up.
That being the case, once I get it all spiced up, if anyone should be interested in having a copy then please don't hesitate to ask. Consider it my gift to you. I just hope that it will make you feel as good as the music makes me feel.
"Anyways, thanks for letting me share."
I am a faithful addict to music. Music has always played such an important and influential part in my life. Music has been my instrument in life for it has seen me through everything. I think I have experienced every possible emotion known to man through music: sadness, happiness, elation, lust, anger, envy, anxiety, rejuvenation. And, I have been through countless experiences via musical journeys of various sorts including death, masterbation, sex, meditation, exercise and sleep. In fact, it is hardly ever quiet around me. I am constantly engulfed in some aural stimulation that is befitting to my particular mood at the time. There is music for every occasion and for every emotion. I listen to opera, classical, choral, ambient, trip-hop, cinema scores, gospel choir, celtic, new age, jazz, latin, rock, goth, industrial, hard rock, some country, some pop, some rap, some R&B, soul, trance, ethereal, house, progressive, indie, rare grooves, old skool, decades (50's+), electronic, ebm.... damn, I listen to it all. More importantly, within each specific genre and subgenre there is something so significantly beautiful and something so specific that sets each of them apart. It's like I can easily love each type of music for what it is. There is some sort of beauty underneath it all and in everything.
It's like, when I listen to music, I really fucking listen to it. I become the music. I imagine the way it would look on sheet music. I imagine the notes and the chords. It gets in my head. It bounces between each ear and my head is swarming with the sounds of aural excellence. There is so much going on in the music. It's like, I cannot hear just one note. I hear several notes. It's almost like I can hear several notes within one note. That's where I get the idea of "blankets of notes". A song or a track or a musical piece is exactly that. There are the notes one sees on the sheet music, but within those notes are other notes. I hear those notes, too. When I hear those notes, I begin to see them all scattered about but neatly placed where they would belong on this sort of mural of one gigantic, endless piece of sheet music. It's really quite fucking beautiful.
For 7 years, I was a member of Honor Choir. Those were some of the best times of my life. My relationship with music just blossomed to no extent. Honor Choir taught me a lot. It has helped me tremendously now as both a musician and a DJ (and an apsiring producer). I started out in the voice part of second alto. But, when I auditioned for the first time in 6th grade, I remember my music teacher telling me that I had a keen ear for harmony. Like, I could pick up any chord or any harmony or other voice part and sing it. As a result, I was always the "floater". I was always the one that would fill in whereever more of a certain voice part was needed. So, I went from second alto and then to first alto. Then, I did a jump from first alto all the way to first soprano. And, from there I continued to float from first alto to second soprano to first soprano. Once, I was even the only girl to sing in the male honor choir! I sang the first tenor part of a most beautiful accapella version of "Ave Maria" by Franz Biebl. It broke into about a 4 or 5 male voice part and it is so enchanting it makes me cry. Not only did I teach the tenors the actual tenor part, but I actually joined them on stage to perform it for All-State.
Yeah, Honor Choir was simply amazing. I went to All-State and to Carnegie Hall and we did several other performances and competitions.
Being that I was a member of several Honor Choirs, that helped to develop my ears even more. By singing numerous voice parts, whenever I listened to music, I was constantly picking out the different harmonies and voice parts. I was always listening for the higher octaves and the lower octaves and even the descants and the dissonance of music. I never really realized, until now, that with my extensive background and appreciation for music and by always listening to music the way that I have, it has helped me and inspired me tremendously with all of my endeavors.
Some of my friends think I have a problem. The way I talk about music like I am in love or obsessed or something, makes them look at me weird but they know it's cool, because "I'm that girl". I'm that girl that gets new music everyday. I'm that girl that shares music with everyone. I'm that girl that makes cd's for everyone. I'm that girl that shows everyone the therapeautic qualities that music contains. I'm that girl that teaches others different ways of hearing and appreciating music. I'm that girl that has about 9 or more different styles of music on her playlist and will blare it loud while you think I am a fucking schizo or multi-personality. And, I"m that girl that can find any song for you even if you don't know the name. Just hum the melody...
One more thing, I use music as a way to reach people. Music is great for that. Music is like the main essential element of life. Music is life. It's the air we breath and the notes are the particles. They are the atoms and the electrons. They are the blankets and waves.
I have this cd of mine that I titled "Places I Go... (and the Voices I Hear...)". It is basically a compilation of some rare stuff and some stuff you may have heard. But, have put it a certain transcendental order. I have also crossfaded it with a program on the computer so it's like a constant journey. This compilation actually helped my mom to understand me better. Upon hearing it the first time, she asked me, "Damn, I wonder what really goes on in your head sometimes? I want to know what you think about." I have handed this cd out to about 7 people. The feedback has been phenomenal. People have cried. People have been deep in thought. And, each of them has told me that they have either played the cd in their office in moments when they needed to relax, or they have at least fallen asleep to it. But, everyone has asked about the selections and where I got some of them. It truly touched them and that is what is important.
I am currently working on the second edition of my personal project, and I also intend on dispensing several more copies of the first one. I am actually working on really spicing even the first edition up.
That being the case, once I get it all spiced up, if anyone should be interested in having a copy then please don't hesitate to ask. Consider it my gift to you. I just hope that it will make you feel as good as the music makes me feel.
"Anyways, thanks for letting me share."
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ha, you'll be sharing the bed with me then. that's my room
more fast air
0^