Let's be honest for a minute.
I love my girlfriend. I don't want to marry her.
I don't want to move in with her. I don't want to do that with anyone right now. One day I will settle down...I promise. But not just yet.
fuck.......I can't give her what she wants.......
On top of al this I need a job still....I go to a couple of interviews a week while still working part time at this crappy computer place....it's killing me. I feel so useless and outta place right now. I don't want to drink or smoke......I just want a job so I can pay off my credit cards...stupid Europe.
I'm getting stressed out and I can't find my place........
f f f f f f f f f f
And to top it off I feel fat...I've gained weight this year....
I've been really skinny my whole life and now I have a belly....
I don't know where to begin to lose the pounds...I heard speed works.... 
i think I'm an idiot......
I don't even know what I'm doing anymore......
I love my girlfriend. I don't want to marry her.
I don't want to move in with her. I don't want to do that with anyone right now. One day I will settle down...I promise. But not just yet.
fuck.......I can't give her what she wants.......
On top of al this I need a job still....I go to a couple of interviews a week while still working part time at this crappy computer place....it's killing me. I feel so useless and outta place right now. I don't want to drink or smoke......I just want a job so I can pay off my credit cards...stupid Europe.
I'm getting stressed out and I can't find my place........
f f f f f f f f f f
And to top it off I feel fat...I've gained weight this year....
I've been really skinny my whole life and now I have a belly....
I don't know where to begin to lose the pounds...I heard speed works....
i think I'm an idiot......
I don't even know what I'm doing anymore......
VIEW 8 of 8 COMMENTS
cat19237:
what don't you know?
lunna:
It's ok sweetie. And to your question....yes done with ...over..he still calls...*sigh*
