caetano

Words Unsaid
The attraction of inaction is just so damn subtle.
Here I sit, listening to the spirits in my head,
Wishing I had not left so many things unsaid.
Hoping that tomorrow I will be better,
That it will not be so very hard to just live,
And love myself enough,
To be the All of me that I have the potential to ......
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I have a rash that is taking over my body. I was out in the sun for an extended amount of time, and am very dark in color. But now I have a rash raging across my skin, mostly on my hips and pelvis, the parts of myself that were not actually exposed to the sun. It is also on my hands, forearm and the...
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Ruined,
Blustery and at bay,
Not in this lifetime and not today,
So here is the plan, not for you and not for me,
And this is the beginning ...
Not the end..
To me.

Sitting idle,
Noone to speak to..
Nowhere to go,
Alone in the light of the monitor,
And wishing you were here,
Praying that you are fine,
Know that you are,...
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Shining gold and chestnut brown,

Like a warm spring in the middle of glacial ice,

Does she come to me with those eyes so bright and beautiful,

This lady, this goddess,

Baptizing me with her strength and spirit,

She leans down,

Grasping me with her glory,

To lift me up and shake me out,

Make me feel and help me shout.

I am captured by...
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Warrior blood is boiling.
I see the future in her eyes.
I know the rage that is contained,
For now.
Building toward power.
Delicate ...
Flower..
And the hope for sunshine,
In the light of dawn.

SAE

OMG!!! I just came from downtown and I had the most awesome experience. I had come from my friend April's concert across the street at the Overture center, and decided to stop in at this place called the Orpheum theatre/Restaurant and Nightclub. So, when I got there is was 10 min till 10pm and they close the kitchen at 10, but, the cook said it...
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Assholes and Motherfuckers coming through
Sometimes I think I am such and egotistical asshole. I just read my last two posts, and I want to tell myself to go fuck off. And I have been using the word fuck more in the last few days than I have in a long long time. I feel so pathetic sometimes. Like I want to tell myself to...
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I want to first qualify what I mean by {{{HUGS}}} kind of friends. What I mean is people who send {{{HUGS}}} and that is all they send, and that is all they say. They do not want to get involved, they do not have the words to tell me what they really think. They just send {{{HUGS}}} and go about their merry way. Never stopping...
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Body is again thrashed. I want to be fucking scary big by this time next year. And so I might up my 12 hours a week to 15-16 hours a week. I am not sure if it will make a difference, but, it can't hurt. My body seems to be all I can control these days, and I know even that is an illusion. I...
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Not in a good mood at the moment...so...

I will just say AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH and Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck,...
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