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Surgical Error

I fucking hate computers. I wrote out an entire entry, and then just as I was about to post itPoww!.. my computer just disconnects, restarts and blam all my work is gone. I guess because I was dumb enough to think that I did not need to do it in Word first, and then save it, that it was my fault for trusting...
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My surgery


My surgery went ok. I am in the process of healing. They had to put a catheter in, so my bladder would not explode, and it will be removed Tuesday. I am still saying "Ow Ow OW OW!" a lot. They did give me pain killers to dull the pain. So, I have been taking those as needed. It is amazing how grateful...
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Ode to my mother and myself

I realize the following is pretty much what I have been saying for a few weeks now. However; for me it is a pathway of reoccuring thought and realization. So, that is how I know that it is absolutely what I need and want.

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I was just laying in bed thinking of all of this stuff. And so...
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I need to be Fucking Free

I keep thinking, where is my mind, where am I in life? What do I need to do to make it all work out the way I need it to? I have begun the journey of a thousand leagues. I am trying to make my life into what I need it to be. I keep thinking if only I...
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Love is always the answer

My mother returned from California tonight. I looked at her, and I realized that she needs more love than any words could ever possibly convey. I have woken up to so many things in the past few weeks. And I have been realizing how much I have not paid attention to. I see my mother, and I want to weep....
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Eat that Ugly Ass Frog

I need to keep this momentum going. I have started down the path, and now I must not fear to continue. I do not know where it will take me. But, so far I have woken up to quite a few things in my life. It is true, when you take time every day, just to think, you realize so...
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The juice is definitely worth the squeeze

I will update this as the day, week and year roles along. I went for a walk today to clear my head. I went to Olbrich Gardens. As I stood there on the bridge, looking both ways up and down the river, I observed a young male mallard, and following in his wake was a young female. I...
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A new day, time, and year


It is a new time, a new day, and a new year. I am awake and ready to rock and or roll. There is so much I want and or need to accomplish today. So, I guess we shall see just how much of it gets done. I know I am going to go for a long long walk...
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These are my thoughts from late this afternoon.......

Well it is later, so.....


I guess it is time to be what I have never as yet found a way to be, and that is a grown-up.
It is time to make the tough choices, and stick to the plan for my life. I can not stand to live this miniscule life anymore. I feel so...
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I believe it was ghandi who said, "Be the change that you want to see in the world". So, I guess it is up to me to be the change I want to see in my world. I know I have been talking so much about making changes, and not reporting any of the ones that I have made. Well, that is because, really, there...
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