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Love is always the answer

My mother returned from California tonight. I looked at her, and I realized that she needs more love than any words could ever possibly convey. I have woken up to so many things in the past few weeks. And I have been realizing how much I have not paid attention to. I see my mother, and I want to weep. I see her, and I know that she is old now. I see her and I know that this is the part of her life where she needs her children around her. She needs help to live day to day. I still will need to push forward, and gain access to my future. But, I now know part of what needs to happen in order for my mother to not only live, but thrive. I see the fear in her. I will dispel those demons. I will love her unconditionally, and I will make sure she knows, deep down, that it is all going to be more than ok.

I really have to talk to my brothers. I need to find out what is going through their hearts and minds. I need to find out about the possibility of Tim moving in here with my mother. Or if he can at the least help financially in the immediate future. My plan is to carry everything that I can, until my mother can get all of her financial life in order. I will burn the boats. And failure will not be an option.




~Scott