This is The Beginning
This is the beginning of this flow of thought and emotion. I just thought I would capture it while it is fresh. I bought, built, and filled a 5 shelf bookcase today. Now, that may seem like an ordinary thing, and it is, and yet, to me it is the beginning of a very focused, extremely organized and productive future. I am slowly but surely checking off things on my Big To Do list. And it feels great. I am sitting here, and I am feeling lonely, as I have so often lately. I want to call a certain person, and yet, do not want to call her, because, while I would love to talk to her and fantasy of fantasies, actually see her, it is just that, a fantasy I fear. I can not handle the disappointment of yet more rejection, and being ignored, so...., here I sit wondering many 'What Ifs', and wishing I had someone to keep warm with, on this rainy cold, and yet spectacularly gorgeous night...
SAE
This is the beginning of this flow of thought and emotion. I just thought I would capture it while it is fresh. I bought, built, and filled a 5 shelf bookcase today. Now, that may seem like an ordinary thing, and it is, and yet, to me it is the beginning of a very focused, extremely organized and productive future. I am slowly but surely checking off things on my Big To Do list. And it feels great. I am sitting here, and I am feeling lonely, as I have so often lately. I want to call a certain person, and yet, do not want to call her, because, while I would love to talk to her and fantasy of fantasies, actually see her, it is just that, a fantasy I fear. I can not handle the disappointment of yet more rejection, and being ignored, so...., here I sit wondering many 'What Ifs', and wishing I had someone to keep warm with, on this rainy cold, and yet spectacularly gorgeous night...
SAE