Thursday Mar 29, 2007

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I love you still

I remember it. I remember the sweetness of your skin. I remember what it felt like to surround you, and have love surround me, in those moments. Those beautiful moments when the two became one. I know what it is to be trusted and to trust. I hold so dear the memory of the sweetness, the softness of your skin. I...
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Wednesday Mar 21, 2007

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I took this from MySpace, however; it does apply here as well. So, if you see this please reply to my post using your own answers. I would love to hear from all of you who are on my Friends list. That would be the highlight of my life thus far. .........Please?


YOU'RE ON MY FRIENDS LIST, I WANNA KNOW YOU BETTER...I want to know...
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spica:
Okie-dokie, here I go! I'll use a Spoiler tag so it doesn't get too long, ok?

SPOILERS! (Click to view)

1. Can you cook? I can make food without burning it, but it's not like I enjoy "cooking". If I have to I probably can, but don't expect me to be spontaneous about it.

2. What was your dream growing up? I've had many dreams... but I had already grown up. As a kid, I didn't really think much about dream professions, really. biggrin


3. What talent do you wish you had? I wished I could cook better. Or enjoy it, at least.


4. Favorite place? Anywhere where it is silent enough, I can hang a hammock and take a nice nap.


5. Favorite vegetable? I'm torn between potatoes and tomatoes. Can I have both?


6. What was the last book you read? I believe it was "The Colour Purple" by Alice Watson (if that was her name).


7. What zodiac sign are you? Scorpio, the worst the zodiac has to offer. biggrin

8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Both ears pierced once and a navel ring. I want the courage for a tattoo, but I have bad skin (I get keloids too easily). frown


9. Worst Habit? Being bossy, never getting anything really done.


10. Do we know each other outside of Suicide Girls? *sigh* I wished!


11. What is your favorite sport? I loved running when I was in secondary school, and I was really good at it.


12. Negative or Optimistic attitude? I'm negative by nature. That way I get specially happy when things go right. And if they don't, I already knew it. biggrin


13. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me? I guess it depends on the size of the elevator. biggrin


14. Worst thing to ever happen to you? Having foot surgery. Too painful for too much time. puke


15. Tell me one weird fact about you: I've been dead before. When I was born, my heart stopped beating for a little while. The doctor reanimated me with little or o effort, but I've seen the "other side".... Hahaha, not really. Too young to remember. biggrin


16. Do you have any pets? I had two cats when I lived with my parents. One (Mini) naver cared much about me, but the other (Gateau) is my furry son. He's 13 and he's still my baby.


17. Do you know how to do the macarena? I probably knew, a long, long time ago... But shh, it's a secret.


18. What time is it where u are now? 9:37 AM, breakfast time. And there's a cake in the fridge with my name on it.


19. Do you think clowns are cute or scary? Although I don't think they're scary, I don't think they're cute either. Funny in the beast case scenario... but not scary or cute.


20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?? My skin. Although it tans really well, it can get too complicated.


21. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience? I'd be your conscience. I'd look adorable dressed like a little angel. tongue


22. What color eyes do you have? Simple and plain brown.


23. Ever been arrested? I wouldn't be a good conscience if I had been arrested. I take the job seriously, Mister!


24. Bottle or Draft? Freshly squeezed orange juice.


25. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it? Oh, let me get my calculator... That plus my life savings would afford a small apartment in my city.


26. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew? I used to love Bazooka's orange, it was fizzy.


27. What 's your favorite bar to hang at? Do you really see your conscience hanging out at bars?


28. Do you believe in ghosts? I believe in the unexplainable (if that word exists).


29. Favorite thing to do in your spare time? Drawing, listening to music, , playing videogames, having friends over... Or all of those at the same time. tongue


30. Do you swear a lot? Way too much. But in the bright side, it helps people take me seriously (specially when I'm threatening them tongue).


31. Biggest pet peeve? People repeating the same thing over and over. I'd strangle them, I swear.


32. In one word, how would you describe yourself. Safe.


33. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you? Probably not. I don't think many people actually enjoy taking their time with these quizzes.


34. Do you like anybody besides the person your dating and if you do who? I can be really flirty but mostly, I have this "platonic love" towards everyone I can call a friend.



Whoa, that was long!

Saturday Mar 10, 2007

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Surgical Error

I fucking hate computers. I wrote out an entire entry, and then just as I was about to post itPoww!.. my computer just disconnects, restarts and blam all my work is gone. I guess because I was dumb enough to think that I did not need to do it in Word first, and then save it, that it was my fault for trusting...
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spica:
Didn't she? Wow.

For your information you don't get to say "surgical error" without my starting to bite my nails... Please say everything's ok...

Friday Feb 23, 2007

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My surgery


My surgery went ok. I am in the process of healing. They had to put a catheter in, so my bladder would not explode, and it will be removed Tuesday. I am still saying "Ow Ow OW OW!" a lot. They did give me pain killers to dull the pain. So, I have been taking those as needed. It is amazing how grateful...
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spica:
*Bear hug*
Been thinking about you a lot. I hope you get well soon! kiss

Wednesday Jan 31, 2007

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Ode to my mother and myself

I realize the following is pretty much what I have been saying for a few weeks now. However; for me it is a pathway of reoccuring thought and realization. So, that is how I know that it is absolutely what I need and want.

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I was just laying in bed thinking of all of this stuff. And so...
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Sunday Jan 28, 2007

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I need to be Fucking Free

I keep thinking, where is my mind, where am I in life? What do I need to do to make it all work out the way I need it to? I have begun the journey of a thousand leagues. I am trying to make my life into what I need it to be. I keep thinking if only I...
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spica:
Patience is a virtue they say. biggrin
One step at a time, my friend. Perhaps two, but there's no need to rush things.

Thursday Jan 18, 2007

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Love is always the answer

My mother returned from California tonight. I looked at her, and I realized that she needs more love than any words could ever possibly convey. I have woken up to so many things in the past few weeks. And I have been realizing how much I have not paid attention to. I see my mother, and I want to weep....
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apathy:
very sweet of you
spica:
You can do it!

Tuesday Jan 16, 2007

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Eat that Ugly Ass Frog

I need to keep this momentum going. I have started down the path, and now I must not fear to continue. I do not know where it will take me. But, so far I have woken up to quite a few things in my life. It is true, when you take time every day, just to think, you realize so...
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spica:
Mothers... love them or leave them. Sometimes both, but we always feel we're doing the wrong thing.
How do they manage?

Sunday Jan 07, 2007

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The juice is definitely worth the squeeze

I will update this as the day, week and year roles along. I went for a walk today to clear my head. I went to Olbrich Gardens. As I stood there on the bridge, looking both ways up and down the river, I observed a young male mallard, and following in his wake was a young female. I...
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spica:
Truly inspiring, I must say.
uni:
Thanks for loving my set smile

Monday Jan 01, 2007

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A new day, time, and year


It is a new time, a new day, and a new year. I am awake and ready to rock and or roll. There is so much I want and or need to accomplish today. So, I guess we shall see just how much of it gets done. I know I am going to go for a long long walk...
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india:
good luck!

Sunday Dec 17, 2006

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These are my thoughts from late this afternoon.......

Well it is later, so.....


I guess it is time to be what I have never as yet found a way to be, and that is a grown-up.
It is time to make the tough choices, and stick to the plan for my life. I can not stand to live this miniscule life anymore. I feel so...
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vivid:
Thanks for the lovely comment on my set!
xoxo

Sunday Dec 17, 2006

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I believe it was ghandi who said, "Be the change that you want to see in the world". So, I guess it is up to me to be the change I want to see in my world. I know I have been talking so much about making changes, and not reporting any of the ones that I have made. Well, that is because, really, there...
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spica:
Sounds like you're having a bad time. frown
But then again, sometimes it's just the time of the year, that pushed weird feeling into us... Give yourself some time. It might pass.
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