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Think of you whenever life gets me down..
Current mood: optimistic

I think of you whenever you are not around....

Why should you? There is not one thing, that tells you that you must. I await, that which will never arrive. Each time, I check, and recheck. Nothing, I find nothing. But, why should you, be obliged to fill up my need? There is not...
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A bald Parrot, Filled with Desire for Fiery Maidens

I am realizing more and more, that it does not matter. I will continue this way. It will never cease. I will always need more surgery. I will always feel like...it can be changed. But, it can not. I just have to accept that.

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What we find in the Fall, helps us make it through...
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Random Splashes of Thought and Emotion


Sometimes in the middle of the night, thoughts go rampaging through my heart and mind, like storm clouds in a summer sky. I think of all I want to do, all I want to be, everything I want to create, of those I love, and who I want to consider me with love in their eyes. I consider what...
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Dante Dreams and Pussy Cats

I just found out that my friend, who Y'all see as Spica in my friends list, had her baby boy. His name is Dante. It took 72 hours of labor and a C-section for him to enter this world. And I have to say to my eyes, he is a beautiful boy. She seems very happy, if not exhausted. And...
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My kitty Mr. Mischief got sick again, and I had to take him to the emergency vet. His urinary tract was blocked again, and so he could not pee. I hate hearing that gut wrenching sound of him moaning and crying. It makes me want to weep and explode at the same time. It costs me another 550 dollars. Which of course I did not...
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spica:
OMG!
My best wishes to Mr. Mischief! It breaks my heart. T__T
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The ingredients of Lies and Life

What am I suppose to say or do? It is such a beautiful day outside, and yet, I am reluctant to go out into it. I do not feel like doing anything or going anywhere. But, I will put myself out there. I have to. The alternative is death. Yes, I know this sounds ramblish. And it is. I...
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Itching to Catch

So the thing isI am eternally sad, or so it would seem. I feel myself pulled away from love and happiness. I feel like I am in a French press coffee maker, and the plunger is pushing downward. I feel like I will never be valuable to anyone, ever again. I feel like all the laughter, and all the love, has been...
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meow:
Thanks for the comment on my "Felt" set! kiss

miao!!
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Random Thoughts

Well. You are right. I was very delighted to hear from you as well. I read you E-mail. And I have to say given my current situation, I envy you very much. You are doing all the things I have until this point in life, only dreamed of doing. I love the fact that you seem to be following your heart, and going...
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I am sitting here on a Sunday afternoon, and am wondering what is going on in the world. I have spent the day doing laundry, and cleaning, and that will probably be all that I accomplish today. But, that is fine, as it all needed to be done anyway. It is raining, which makes me sleepy and full of thought. I want to be already...
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I Will Love You Ever More


I know what it is like to love a woman for an entire lifetime, and know that no matter how deeply, hopelessly, infinitely In Love with her I am...We will never be together. I know what it is to see her life, and my life, side by side, and to know that as they are now, they would never...
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Love of SELF


Here is the thing….I am so sick of my own shit, that I am bored with it to the point of wanting to do away with myself, just for some excitement. Work is really getting to me. I can hardly stand to be there anymore. It is just so fucking the same..the same people with their small little lives. I am just...
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The Thing Is....Continued


The thing is that I am moving forward on a great many things, and yet, I feel the crush of it all. It all comes down to money. If I had the money to pay off my student loans, then I could apply and go to school at Phoenix On-line. If I had the money I could pay off the folks that...
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