cadyne

I had nightmares all last night.. first about Karla Homolka trying to break in my window, and then a long, bad dream about Richie..

I drove to West Virginia, and when I got there his dad said he was out with a friend but would be back at 10. I waited till 1 a.m., and in the meantime I found a journal of his and started reading. He was writing about how he's just using me and he misses his ex and all this bad stuff. But when he finally got home, he was friendly and acted like nothing was wrong.

Then I woke up.

I had the dream because I called him last night around 9:30 and his little sister said, "he's out with his friend Megan."

I know I shouldn't be so suspicious, but I think Megan is his ex-girlfriend's name, so I'm worrying. I almost want to cancel the trip to see him because I don't understand why he would want to be around her when it ended the way it did.. I'm worried now that they'll want to get back together and he'll forget about me - out of sight, out of mind. I really do need to go though, so I can meet Megan and either reassure myself that she's harmless or throw her under a train.

I don't think he's cheating.. his parents know all about me, and they seem excited to see me. I don't think that would be the case if he was stringing me along.. I think he would have just pretended I was a nobody. Hopefully I'm just over-dramatizing the situation in my mind.