In typical me style, I have fallen off the "I swear I will blog more this time" wagon. Meh.
So, I suppose now would be a good time to say that all was resolved with French Press and Crush. Crush is having his annual Halloween party this weekend. I will flirt mercilessly and go home by myself. Good girl. French Press may be present...and it will be okay this time. Everything has settled back into place it seems.
Things with D went pretty well. I'm loosing my head over this whole moving out here business, though. Much more than I thought I would. It's more annoying than anything else, though. He treats me like a goddess. He loves me completely and unconditionally and I'm resisting it. Part of me just can't stop asking if he is what is going to make me happiest. Is it okay, this time, to let my heart take over where I have firmly placed my mind in charge, thanks to past experience? Thinking things like this through is maddening. I am constantly running. I don't think I have ever just sat back and been happy. I need to chill out and learn how to do that. I am really happy with D....and I feel like I'm ruining it. Ugh.
On a totally separate note....
Saw The Social Network Today and it left me in conflict with my teenage-self. Knowing that Facebook started as an idea to further separate society into sects makes me want to cancel my account right now. BUT...it really is a brilliant tool. I am in touch with people all over the world that I otherwise would not be connected to due to lack of resources (international communication can be tough...) or just time, unfortunately. And, unlike a lot of people, I like that my life is available in summary to those who care. I have family all over the place and I like that we can stay somewhat connected on a more regular basis. However, I kind of want to argue with myself for being in such support of it. It seems that even Zuckerberg himself finds the whole thing to be a psychological play thing and I feel slightly dumb being on the supporting end. But it is what it is. I AM curious, though, to hear other opinions on the film/support debate...anyone?
So, I suppose now would be a good time to say that all was resolved with French Press and Crush. Crush is having his annual Halloween party this weekend. I will flirt mercilessly and go home by myself. Good girl. French Press may be present...and it will be okay this time. Everything has settled back into place it seems.
Things with D went pretty well. I'm loosing my head over this whole moving out here business, though. Much more than I thought I would. It's more annoying than anything else, though. He treats me like a goddess. He loves me completely and unconditionally and I'm resisting it. Part of me just can't stop asking if he is what is going to make me happiest. Is it okay, this time, to let my heart take over where I have firmly placed my mind in charge, thanks to past experience? Thinking things like this through is maddening. I am constantly running. I don't think I have ever just sat back and been happy. I need to chill out and learn how to do that. I am really happy with D....and I feel like I'm ruining it. Ugh.
On a totally separate note....
Saw The Social Network Today and it left me in conflict with my teenage-self. Knowing that Facebook started as an idea to further separate society into sects makes me want to cancel my account right now. BUT...it really is a brilliant tool. I am in touch with people all over the world that I otherwise would not be connected to due to lack of resources (international communication can be tough...) or just time, unfortunately. And, unlike a lot of people, I like that my life is available in summary to those who care. I have family all over the place and I like that we can stay somewhat connected on a more regular basis. However, I kind of want to argue with myself for being in such support of it. It seems that even Zuckerberg himself finds the whole thing to be a psychological play thing and I feel slightly dumb being on the supporting end. But it is what it is. I AM curious, though, to hear other opinions on the film/support debate...anyone?