cadence

hello ladies and gents,

i know. it seems as though i fell off the face of the planet.
sorry about that. was/am dealing with massive drama and well, heartache with a certain someone who i'm beginning to wonder wtf i'm doing around these days.

so when my days haven't been spent angry or at my new job..selling tv's with miss Keelia. I've been at Hell..probably more than i should be. and pretty much being the lush that i always knew i could be.

took a trip to boston about a week ago and hung out with Poppy, LizziTallz, and miss MaryAnn. amazing times. went to see Valencia, Envy on the Coast and Medicated Kisses.

then to some sweet allston dive bars. i love those ladies.

hope everyone had a fantastic christmas and new years.
christmas was amazing. my mom got me a snowboard! and tons of UnderArmor stuff!
new years..eh less so. i've successfully never had a good new years..ever. this one was spent chugging Dos XX, jello shots, and champagne..then off to Sidebar (a hip hop club..yeeah i know) and ringing in the new year wtih my favorite girl, keelia. Went home. Passed out, up at 830 with a massive hangover and about 15 angry texts from a certain heartbreaker..

its been down hill from there.
this coming week should hopefully be a better. stay tuned for pictures of the past few weeks.keelia and i need to go apartment hunting at some soon point, and once i get my bindings on i'll be on the mountain..never to return..least not for a few days.


xoxo cadence.

ps. i've been listening to these bands on repeat the past few days..you should check out: The Spill Canvas, Medicated Kisses, Envy on the Coast, and finally As Tall as Lions


"life used to be life-like
now it's more like showbiz
i wake up in the night
and i don't know where the bathroom is
and i don't know what town i'm in
or what sky i am under
and i wake up in the darkness and i
don't have the will anymore to wonder
everyone has a skeleton
and a closet to keep it in
and your mine
every song has a you
a you that the singer sings to
and you're it this time
baby, you're it this time

when i need to wipe my face
i use the back of my hand
and i like to take up space
just because i can
and i use my dress
to wipe up my drink
i care less and less
what people think
and you are so lame
you always disappoint me
it's kind of like our running joke
but it's really not funny
and i just want you to live up to
the image of you i create
i see you and i'm so unsatisfied
i see you and i dialate

so i'll walk the plank
and i'll jump with a smile
if i'm gonna go down
i'm gonna do it with style
and you won't see me surrender
you won't hear me confess
'cuz you've left me with nothing
but i've worked with less
and i learn every room long enough
to make it to the door
and then i hear it click shut behind me
and every key works differently
i forget everytime
and forgetting defines me
that's what defines me

when i say you sucked my brain out
the english translation
is i am in love with you
and it is no fun
but i don't use words like love
'cuz works like that don't matter
but don't look so offended
you know, you should be flattered
and i wake up in the night
in some big hotel bed
and my hands grope for the light
and my hands grope for my head
the world is my oyster
the road is my home
and i know that i'm better
off alone"

-ani, dialate