cactusgeeves

I'm in a relationship that a lot of times leaves me shaking my head. She's a nice person with a good heart, but she and her family don't think things through. It seems like there is a crisis about every other week (or more). It really becomes annoying and frustrating. I constantly feel like I have to save the world all the time, either with time, ideas, and in some cases, financial help. I want to help, but I'm getting burned out.

I have a hard time talking to her about my problems because it seems like I either can't get a word in, or there's another crisis and it's just a bad time. She has a tendancy to freak out (not at me, just in general) so another straw could cause the camels back to explode. I'm not a quitter when it comes to relationship, which has lead me to be a doormat for many self-serving women. In the past, I've been in other relationships with women that were honestly just taking me for granted (or just plain using me).

I don't know what I'm going to do next. I'll figure it out. Just seems like lately all of my past loves are married and happy. Makes me wonder why I can't have that, or at least have more than what I have now. Or maybe I'm just selfish and a little immature still. I'm a weird guy, what can I say?

I do have a nice life, really. Good family, nice house I'm improving, good job. Guess things aren't so bad, huh?