Getting really tired of this back and forth shit. I know it seems like all I do is piss and moan on here but I have to do it somewhere. I'm always the guy that people turn to for help, advice or just some encouraging words. Everybody commends me for my strength through hard times and my perseverance but in all honestly I'm worn so thin right now I don't even feel like myself. My strength is depleted and I don't want to turn into one of those assholes that you see every single day belittling people and talking down on others for no good reason. I want to keep my head high but theres another part of me that just wants to end it all, give life the finger and be done. I feel like a line from an Iced Earth song (so torn between love, death, life and hate) and I don't know what to do to stop it. I've tried everything in my power to keep a positive outlook on everything but I just can't see through the dark anymore. I have no light here, nothing to guide me and nobody to help. Everybody says the same things to me and its not helping. "You'll be alright, keep your chin up" is doing nothing for me anymore... I don't know where else to turn... Sorry for rambling again, I just had to let it out somewhere since nobody around me listens or even cares for that matter.
Much Love
-B
Much Love
-B