butterflyscars

So I've been looking around at other peoples profiles and something always strikes me as interesting. That being, which people like which SG's the most. It is so diverse. I would have imagined there would be at least one who was in almost everyone's favorites. I think it is great that people's views differ so much. This means there isn't one idealised type of beauty that the media has shoved down our throats. Also, this would suggest that if someone isn't attracted to us it isn't because we are ugly. Rather, it means we aren't their preferance. Having that said, it is quite apparent my preferance is slender women, pretty faces and small breasts. I rule so much.
It is wednesday and I haven't skipped one class this week. I have done all of my reading as well. As a result I am a lot happier with life. I also saw Elenor for the first time in a couple of weeks. This is the first time since I sat down with her at lunch and introduced myself. She recognised me and said hi in passing. Now I am going to try to leave for feminist theory at 2:15 everyday. I've been a little disheartend that I haven't seen her around because I am trying to talk to her enough to be more than aquanited. I told some of my friends today that by thanksgiving break Elenor and I will have gone out or she will have rejected me. Either way I will not have any "I wish I hads" in my life. Oh, another good thing that happend today is that I bought a suction cup for $4 and pulled a dent out of my car the body shop said they would do for $800. I may put things off but I am a good problem solver.
There was one thing that upset me today. You guessed it, my ex. She is getting to be infuriating. I am fine with being friends. She however still has feelings for me and has decided to be a complete bitch lately. At first she was really irritable and snappish towards everyone but especially me. It put me in a bad mood but I could at least understand it. Then I noticed that if anyone of her friends wasn't around she would trash them. This really upset me because it is a real betrayal of friendship to say one thing to someone's face and another behind their back. Today might be the proverbial "last straw." In effect she is dividing up friends. There are five of us who always go to dinner. Everyone is always invited. Now I have been quite upset with her for the past few weeks but I would never imagine saying to any of our mutual friends that I wanted to do something and specifically exclude her. As Gene Simmons from KISS would angrily say, "That does not ROCK!!!" Knowing she still has feelings for me I am really tempted to take revenge. I have neigbors who are really attractive, everything in women she hates and would be more than willing to hang all over me in front of her. Part of me is wondering why I don't just suck it up and be the bigger person and take her injustices. Part of me thinks that was bled out of me by how many women have treated me like shit after we broke up. However I am going to be a better person not because of her or our friends but because a good person is what I want to be. Wow this entry is entirly to long and I still have reading to do.