butterfly

Hey Everybody,

I am sorry that i have'nt been writing in here it just seemd like lately everything has been happen. But i will seriously stop neglecting everyone. Soo, i hope that everyone has been doing good..i have ..well kinda. I just broke up with this guy that was with for 5 years. It was bad for him but not that much for me. I guess because he really was'nt that good to me and i pour my heart out to him for five years and i just did'nt get the same treatment from him so ..yeah. Now that i am single i don't know it feels weird.? I was with him since i was fifteen..one day it just was'nt there anymore and when that happens you have to pay attention to yourself because in the end that's who you have to think about yourself. now if your reading this give me some advice ok.. he still calls me and sometimes i call him just because i guess i am use to that and we still see each other on saturdays. The problem is how do i tell him or show him that it's really over. But i don't want to be rude about it?
Ok..on to something else i finally got my car fix and i am still trying to find a photographer in my area so if you know of one that i can trust tell me about it. I have guys on myspace saying that their photographer and stuff..but i don't know about that. And i really wanted to do the Suicide Girls tour thing to but i just don't have the money which really sucks ass . But next time they do one i will be going. O' yeah i have pics that i take on myself to acting crazy so when i find the plug i will put those up as soon as possible. But i am going to stop writing and make some soap that's another hobbie i have now. And i promise i will be writing in here every week.

love,
Butterfly Suicide