buster_hymen

Worst weekend of the year update:
Spent the entire weekend trapped in the house with only 40 percent power because apparently a transformer on the side of the house decided to be an asshole and hang cockeyed off the side of the house. Since my mother was away on business, all I could do was call PECO almost every 2 hours and babysit a house...
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This is from my blog on myspace because honestly I'm feeling this way all over again.

People are harder to quit than cigarettes

Ever had that feeling of dialing a phone number you HOPE doesn't ring? Reaching out to someone you hope is too busy to notice you? Knocking on a door wishing that person is at the store or something?

The worst part about...
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I hate my fucking city. Damn near every hip hop venue that opens in this city dies in 6 months or less. I'm literally reduced to having to travel to NY just get in an open mic showcase. This is fucking bullshit

Sitting here conflicted. What was clear is cryptic
Every tear that shifted seems like a year in prison
Who could foresee the instance shed deny the pleasure
of her private treasure? More beauty than the eye can measure
But why forever? Weve experienced each other before
Now she tells me her desires to be a mother of 4
But her lover? No more. Only friends...
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I'm about 85-90 percent back to my normal self. Thankfully. I'm finding satisfaction in things again, and I'm even writing songs again. In fact I basically wrote one yesterday morning (fastest write job I've ever done) called "Vice Grip" (get it?)

Oh and as a warning to anyone out there who meets someone spectular/exciting/unique/etc........and they're contemplating something serious coming of it.........ask yourself 2 questions before...
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I think I'm actually starting to regain my normal sanity levels, slowly but I feel better than I was several days ago. My weight's even almost back to normal. I want to take a moment and thank all those who came to my side when I was bitching, rambling, and screaming. Some of you offered comfort, others offered reality shattering advice. And trust me, there...
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At times I'm not sure if I have a low grade form of bi-polar disorder, or if it's just a neurosis somewhere in my head, but I hate having periods where depression sets in on me from out of nowhere. Living the painfully simple life I do lead, once my world is introduced to something of interest, it tends to get fixated very easily. Combine...
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Anyone seen my virginity? It was lost about 7 hours ago, you can't miss it. It was fermented for about 25 years in wooden barrell of desperation, bad luck and self doubt. Note: I DON'T WANT IT BACK. I'd just like to formally say goodbye to it since I totally forgot to at the time. Was kinda "caught up" in the moment.

Any help would...
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In the behind the scenes footage in this head full of gaudiness
I juggle insecurities, anticipating boos from the audience
Oh Lord hes just making up for years of isolation
The proof is in the acid in his tears, I dont blame him
My inner childs a schitzo, a loner with a gang mentality
Get the wolves with the prescription pads, let them handle me...
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Well they say my stepdad is making progress, which is good cause it seems like he was being his usual stubborn self at first by not taking his medications. But he's gotten on the good foot, and is making steps towards progression. He still rambles occasionally, but it's not as bad as it used to be. So here's to hoping.....
And I meant to put...
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Well I just came from seeing my stepdad in his new rehab hospital. I avoided seeing him for several days because I was fighting a cold.
This is going to be severe change for all of us. Yes he has his motor skills, communication and a good part of his memory. For that we're all thankful. However the part of his brain that the stroke...
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