so a father of my old childhood friend comes up to me and says. " are you married yet?" and I say "no". then he says " still being a playboy right?" I laugh in my disgust and say " uhh...sure"
I had a conversation with a friend the other day about courtship, and he said: "when do you think you'll get married" I said "I dunno...30 I guess". he basically explained to me that everyone he knows is not even close to being married, and he asked me whats a reason you haven't really pursue anyone (which I don't) and I said: " well because I'm really not liking the idea that my future wife would have slept with at least 3-4 people before marring me. he went on to explain his many fuckfest with women and then thinking how would they explain to their boyfriends that they fucked him in the backseat of a car while 2 other women watched. and how he fucked women without a condom and with their permission came on their faces. how he'd cum inside thier assholes, and all types of deviant shit...to which I laughed uncontrolably
but I said: " yeah...how do you explain that you're not new anymore, for both male and female. I mean shit, how do you explain that everythings not new. my friend is one of those "alpha-males" and he would take no responisblity for how many women he fucked as opposed to how many women his current girlfriend fucked. so he said : you are still saving yourself? and I said: i wouldn't call it that. look, I'd want nothing more than to make love to other woman, but I just want something new, and honest. I want something to be awkward at first and then bossom. I hate the fact that I'm going to or have to live my life with a degree of ignorance, because what's worst than thinking (and this has happened to me) kissing a girls back, and making your way down, and she says "I love it when I'm fucked in the ass" and your like...well if she likes to get fucked in the ass, that does mean she got fucked in the ass before...well....how many people fucked her in the ass?
I'm sorry, but now you beautiful SG friends know my problem, and that is. I think too much, but come on. I mean if I sleep wth someone there is a possibity of having a child, or getting a diease, and some of these things don't go away...like kids....well ok, you can, but you know?
I can go on for hours, but I just realized that I spent an hour here off and on, and I really shoud get some work done.