I haven't been this depressed in a while....where to start..
thats cool job that I was going to have, I didn't get, but the fucked up thing was that the boss called me, and said that she really liked me, better than the person she hired, and that she didn't wish any "ill will" toward her, but if it doesn't work out. I'm in.
...what the fuck is that about...look, if you don't want to give me a job, don't give it to me, but please, don't say shit like. I'm better than the person whom you hired. it just doesn't make any sense.
another thing was what happen on friday with the girl I was fooling around with...yes, she hurt me first, so I had to repay the offer. after 20 mins of telling her how much of a cold, selfish cunt she was. I thought and said: you don't want to fool around anymore do you, and she said " you know, I've been meaning to tell you that..I feel like we rushed things"
last time I check she pulled down my pants and began sucking, I had no intention of doing that, but anyway. I explain to her that she should start thinking about whet she does, before she does it, and that if you got your fucked up problems don't drag anyone else into it...so I guess it's done between us...
I've gained 5 pounds, and now I look like fuckin suge knight. it's fucking sickning.
all of these bills are adding up, and I'm thinking about leaving this and netflix...it's a damn shame I know. it's gonna suck when theres a xip set, or a kate set, or especally a hexe set, and I'm not here. hahaha fuck it right? theres gonna be like 300 people commenting anyways
is a result to being fat is that you sweat alot? cause I'm sweating...I don't normally like hot weather, but I wonder??
the only good thing thats happened is that I framed all 6 of the star wars saga on my wall. geekdom fulfilled for the week? check!
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The weight will come right off. Have you tried weight trainiing at all? I love it, but as i can't afford a gym right now, I just do pilates in my living room.
When in a depressing phase just be sure to get plenty of fresh air, and be kind to yourself.
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I will miss you. Be well. Things are probably changing right now!
Good luck in the month ahead.
~Rebecca