burnbright

the last fucking word on drama: if you have received an e-mail from me that you aren't welcome back at redviolet's and my place, then there is no more discussion. if you don't understand, then maybe you should think about it. are you a creepy, drooling, old man who only seems to show up at events to get tail or at least see as much nudity/girl-on-girl action as possible? do you badmouth people behind their backs for acting as they saw fit? do you act out for attention? than shut the fuck up and go away. if i choose not to talk to you at other events, shrug it off and talk to people who give a shit.

end of story. being a bitch is getting way more comfortable... and that's kind of sad.


now for the fun stuff: i believe weerd science is my new favorite. listen to some shit on their myspace. and those aren't even the best. i highly recommend "fuck you and your filthy A&R department" and "in a city with no name." i don't know if any of you have ever listened to john reuben, this goofy white christian rapper, but it reminds me a little of that. only better.


other stuff... for those that don't know, i've been interviewing with another company. i have been waiting since thursday to hear back. they said more than likely i'd hear the beginning of this week. i actually answered the phone at my current job when they called to do my reference check. so now i'm sitting here like

i'm really nervous about possibly leaving the company that i've been with for three years now. i worked my way up from a measely sales associate to a co-manager. ever since i started the interviewing process with Other Company, it's starting to become really obvious what my leaving will do to the store i'm at now. that's not a statement to make myself sound important, it's just realistic. if myself, my store manager, or the other co left, there would be slack to pick up. i don't want to leave my boss. i really, really don't. i love him and he's like my big brother. he takes care of me and is cooler than cool. i mean, come on. i don't know all that many managers who would laugh at you if you came into work an hour late and still kinda drunk. but he's like that. not seeing him almost every day will be weird. he's the one that trained me when i first got promoted to management, and i think that we've always just worked really well together. the stuff that he's bad at, i do well, and vice versa with a lot of things.

anyway. i think that i'm going regardless. i mean, i know my store inside and out. i know the company. we all talk about leaving and we've all been doing it for a really long time. Other Company has a lot of things about them that i am way more comfortable with, their style is far more fitting, etc. it's just going to be hard. but i guess that's change, right? all the things that have been driving me fucking out of my mind for the last couple months will be gone. and, hey, there will probably be new stuff, but... maybe not. who knows? i'll never know till i try, right?


i don't give a goddamn if you like my shit, bitch