working nights totally fucks me up.
i missed one of my only friends college graduation party yesterday. on a sunday at 3pm. most people would assume that i could be there. i wanted to be there, i was supposed to be there. but then again working saturday night at midnight and getting out at 8am on sunday morning kinda fucks with me a bit and i totally forget what day it is. so yeah, i have let down one of my only friends in the neighborhood that is left.
sucks to be me. sometimes i just feel so out of place. i live in my own little world. a world of eternal darkness. and when the sun comes up, thats when i crawl into my hole of a bedroom and shun everything i know that exists. wasting away on a computer. and then sleeping for hours untill i have to get up at 11pm only to repeat the process over again the next day.
i missed one of my only friends college graduation party yesterday. on a sunday at 3pm. most people would assume that i could be there. i wanted to be there, i was supposed to be there. but then again working saturday night at midnight and getting out at 8am on sunday morning kinda fucks with me a bit and i totally forget what day it is. so yeah, i have let down one of my only friends in the neighborhood that is left.
sucks to be me. sometimes i just feel so out of place. i live in my own little world. a world of eternal darkness. and when the sun comes up, thats when i crawl into my hole of a bedroom and shun everything i know that exists. wasting away on a computer. and then sleeping for hours untill i have to get up at 11pm only to repeat the process over again the next day.
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and if they dont now (as they have just graduated) they will soon.
its a shame you feel so out of place in the night schedule.
i feel more out of place in the daytime world than anything else.
i hope you find a way to work it all out, darlin.