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i've been called fat three fucking times today.

three times! that has to be a record.

and what makes it fucking ridiculous is that i'm nowhere near fat. seriously.

i mean, i'm bigger than i used to be, but i eat now, i eat often, and i enjoy it that way. yeah i used to be 20lbs less than i am now, but i was so fucking sick and starving to death that i don't remember ANY of it, save what i managed to write down.

i get pissed off because no one should have the fucking right to insult anyone else's weight. i've gone thru fucking HELL being obsessed with my weight, and i'm just now starting to be ok with how i look and how much space i take up, and then people fucking insult me about my size. seriously, what the fuck?

i fucking hate people. i hate society and the stupid stereotypes and expectations girls have to live up to.

yeah, i'm bigger than a size 0. my pants size has gotten bigger as i've gotten older. what's so fucking wrong with that? i have a boyfriend who obviously thinks i'm gorgeous and sexy, so who is anyone else to tell me otherwise?

the big question: why does what these assholes said to me bother me so damn much? why do i care what people who don't even know me said?

why do people have to get under my skin and kick me in the deepest depths of my insecurity... geezus fucking christ. i give up. i need to go to bed or something before something else shitty happens.