brynnmawr

Ello All,

Kind of in a shitty place again... both of the girls I would die to be with are with other people who make them happy... both keep telling me I'm a good guy and that there is someone out there for me... but I'm really starting to doubt that... Going to try the not looking thing... maybe she will be looking and find me...

Thinking about taking up both types of smoking again so I at least have something to do on all my lonely nights... I've given up on traveling becauseIi fucking hate doing stuff alone... I feel enough like a freak already...

I pretty much wake up and go to work and come back home every night... I spend my two days off at my folks doing laundry and watching tv...Ii have no social life outside of work and my roommates... my life fucking sucks...

going to be getting some more piercings and ink... since the pain from both helps me feel like Im living life if only for a brief moment...

Never thought i would be 27 and alone... i would of thought at least one desperate girl would have settled for me by now... guess I too much of freak for even that...


until next time,
This is the TattooedShadow...