bryionak

11 hours in a train, endless meetings, a mediocre icehockey match and after all returning home to ... well ... pretty much nothing. Not feeling well these days, something's missing. Probably that one woman giving me a reason to come back. Still missing my last girlfriend after all these months. But we never had a chance :-(

Phew, that was interesting. My first shooting is done. It was pretty weird being naked in front of a professional camera, but that lady really made me feel comfortable and relaxed. Definately a nice experience and i can't wait to see the results. Couple of the raw shots on the camera looked amazingly well. In between i received some first results from the portrait fotographer...
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Two more days until my first shooting. I am very nervous, especially because i never exposed myself in front of a camera. Very excited how the results will look like. Already saw some pictures from that lady behind the camera and she seems to be not bad. At least she's good for beginners after all i heard. Will be pretty strange i guess but she...
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What the hell is wrong with women these days? For a few weeks i have been looking for a female partner for Salsa beginner lessons. What happened is that i met with three or four ladies. They acted as if i was looking for a wife and they for a husband and not for a nice partner for goddamn five lessons of 1.5 hours each...
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Something's going definately wrong these days. Job's fine, health okay but no matter what i do, no matter what i try, nothing works in my private life. One disappointment chases the other. Seems i need a new masterplan or something. Fuck.

Just as i thought, typical London trip. Getting up at 4:30 in the morning, delayed flight due to fog in London, messed up schedule. Tasty english breakfast with four eggs, baked beans and a grumbling stomach. Big surprise: flight back in the evening was perfectly in time, nothing that happens very often in Heathrow hell. 1 am now and tired, gonna drink a beer and...
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Getting up at 5 a.m. tomorrow pisses my off a bit. Winter is my time to stay in bed as long as possible. Well, reason is one more of these 1-day-business-trips to London that i hate that much. Getting up early to catch my flight, coming back late in the night with a lot of stress in between. Could be worse though, sheer first world...
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Just finished my first photo shooting. Nothing serious, just a couple of b/w portraits. Very excited how the final pictures will be. Still one more week until my big photo session. Getting more and more nervous every day. Never did that before. On the other hand: two girls who asked me to do a shooting for them. Will be interesting and a good opportunity to...
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I'm so excited, finally found a good female photographer and made an appointment for a shooting. I have been thinking about that for a very long time because normally i hate being on photos and it's quite expensive. And even worse: i'll be nude at the end of the Session. But i want to do it, maybe it changes my self perception a bit. I'm...
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Need to get my lazy body moving. Thinking about some Salsa lessons, even though i am not a dancer. But tried it once and it was fun. Apart from that, Salsa Parties might be a good spot to look for a new woman in my life after being solo again.