brotherofmetal

Went to the Flames game last night. Some fat greasy security guard tried to kick us out for sitting in the wrong general admission seats. What a dick. Good time, and good game though. Was exhausted for work today. It was raining, and I felt like my entire life was a depressing mess. Personal life. Fucked up. I'll try to be "just friends" with C., but in the end, I'll break. You just can't hold feelings back forever. At least I can't. And then we will have another wickedly strained friendship. Why can't I just go pick up random girls at a bar like every other jackass? Nope, not me. I have to get close enough to them to be best friends, and then I fall for 'em. If you thought the personal life was a mess, guess how work's going...Nothing works for me in the lab. Good idea after good idea, seems to literally turn to intractable ooze in the lab. Good thing I have results to present for my talk in Halifax...or my talk at school tommorow...shit, I'm gonna need to get on that. Make some slides..."this didn't work", "neither did this", and so on. So I sat in the office all day reading journal articles, trying to figure out what to do next. All the while C. e-mailed me about 8 or so times. Not that I'm complaining but this isn't exactly helping to clear up the whole little conundrum we call a relationship..err.. uh..friendship, I guess. Fuck, I don't know. Add to confusion: we went out for a movie tonight. I'll probably see her at least twice this weekend. Hmmm...
And what can we conclude from this discussion?
That's right. Fuck.