So it is official...my dreams are coming true...I have the great opportunity to pose for my first (hopefully!) SG set this Saturday with the uber amazing and suave and funny and handsome and adventurous and sweet and fantastic (and I haven't even met him in the flesh) Idjiit and the equally long list of yummy adjectives, tmronin. I am the luckiest little SG hopeful ever... It is all very secret and hush-hush and they are amazing and wonderful for being so game and willing to do something so...very...very...very...naughty. *wink* They have, of course, won my heart just for that!
Plus, I'm convinced that with their skills they could make a corpse in a body bag look fucking hot.
Hey, if YOU were about to get nekkid in front of two "strangers" you'd be laying it on thick, too! *giggle* No, really, I believe every word of my own touting, which is WHY I'm going to get nekkid in front of two "strangers."
So there.
I went to bed at 8pm last night. Woke up long enough for A to crack my ailing back a few times around 2am and then went back to sleep. I broke my back in three places when I was 15 and They said that I would never walk, blah blah blah. It was a riding accident. I used to ride competitively and there was an accident that stemmed from complications related to my anorexia which took me from about 180 to 79 in the matter of about 6 months. This is my cautionary tale of Why Eating Disorders Are Bad. The accident was bad. It was July. I rode huntseat equitation, if that means anything to anyone. I passed out during a competition and my horse fell, I fell, the jump fell on me and the horse fell on top of the jump that fell on me. I don't remember much of the next few months. Anyway, that was a long time ago, and, obviously, I'm not stuck in bed anymore and most definitely not 79 pounds anymore (see curvey and see a picture of me!) I've even been known to dance on tables and the seats of the subway from time to time, but occasionally my back still acts up. Two of the fractures fused back and are just stiff now, but one is still a "hazard," as in it isn't stabile. It is easily knocked around and gets very very very painful. Insult to literal injury, I lost almost an inch and a half once it was all said and done. I always wanted to be 5' 7" so going in the opposite direction was not a happy incident. Anyway, recently it has been giving me a lot of problems. I have a really high pain threshold but there have been a few times recently when the pain has gotten to the level where Things got Fuzzy. That White Light Flashing Before Your Eyes... It hasn't been this bad in a really really really long time and I'm sure that part of it is from stress and part is from lugging too much Junk around and part is from wearing Unreasonable shoes. I actually went out and bought two pairs of FLAT shoes recently...that is how bad it has gotten. So I have this daily reminder of what I did to myself. I hate to sound preachy or whatever, but honestly, eating disorders are fucking bad news. They don't just make your hair fall out and ruin your metabolism, they can also lead to things that effect you for many many many years later in life, even when you're Healthy again. To this day I have complications from it...my metabolism is all fucked out of whack and for two years the doctors can't figure out what to do about it. Anyway, Eat. Eat well. Eat because you need it. Eat because food is yummy. Ummm...yeah...wow...didn't mean to get on THAT soapbox today...but I just talked to my little sister and she's struggling to "be skinny" (even though she's a national swimmer and swims over 6 miles a day...she's just buff and not as twiggy as the Other Girls) and it drives me LOOPY!!! So love your body. And take your clothes off and pose for SG!!! *wink*
What happened to Sunday?
Plus, I'm convinced that with their skills they could make a corpse in a body bag look fucking hot.
Hey, if YOU were about to get nekkid in front of two "strangers" you'd be laying it on thick, too! *giggle* No, really, I believe every word of my own touting, which is WHY I'm going to get nekkid in front of two "strangers."
So there.
I went to bed at 8pm last night. Woke up long enough for A to crack my ailing back a few times around 2am and then went back to sleep. I broke my back in three places when I was 15 and They said that I would never walk, blah blah blah. It was a riding accident. I used to ride competitively and there was an accident that stemmed from complications related to my anorexia which took me from about 180 to 79 in the matter of about 6 months. This is my cautionary tale of Why Eating Disorders Are Bad. The accident was bad. It was July. I rode huntseat equitation, if that means anything to anyone. I passed out during a competition and my horse fell, I fell, the jump fell on me and the horse fell on top of the jump that fell on me. I don't remember much of the next few months. Anyway, that was a long time ago, and, obviously, I'm not stuck in bed anymore and most definitely not 79 pounds anymore (see curvey and see a picture of me!) I've even been known to dance on tables and the seats of the subway from time to time, but occasionally my back still acts up. Two of the fractures fused back and are just stiff now, but one is still a "hazard," as in it isn't stabile. It is easily knocked around and gets very very very painful. Insult to literal injury, I lost almost an inch and a half once it was all said and done. I always wanted to be 5' 7" so going in the opposite direction was not a happy incident. Anyway, recently it has been giving me a lot of problems. I have a really high pain threshold but there have been a few times recently when the pain has gotten to the level where Things got Fuzzy. That White Light Flashing Before Your Eyes... It hasn't been this bad in a really really really long time and I'm sure that part of it is from stress and part is from lugging too much Junk around and part is from wearing Unreasonable shoes. I actually went out and bought two pairs of FLAT shoes recently...that is how bad it has gotten. So I have this daily reminder of what I did to myself. I hate to sound preachy or whatever, but honestly, eating disorders are fucking bad news. They don't just make your hair fall out and ruin your metabolism, they can also lead to things that effect you for many many many years later in life, even when you're Healthy again. To this day I have complications from it...my metabolism is all fucked out of whack and for two years the doctors can't figure out what to do about it. Anyway, Eat. Eat well. Eat because you need it. Eat because food is yummy. Ummm...yeah...wow...didn't mean to get on THAT soapbox today...but I just talked to my little sister and she's struggling to "be skinny" (even though she's a national swimmer and swims over 6 miles a day...she's just buff and not as twiggy as the Other Girls) and it drives me LOOPY!!! So love your body. And take your clothes off and pose for SG!!! *wink*
What happened to Sunday?
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vixen:
Oooo baby!!! Good luck on the shoot!!! Meow!
bunny:
Needless to say, I am very excited for your SG debut. Have a great time at the shoot this weekend! 