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A's mom died last night. It was her birthday. She just turned 57. I really wanted to meet her. I suspect that he got a lot of his traits from her. I bet she was really a very strong woman. I know he loved her very much. It just breaks my heart to see him have to deal with this from afar and with so much else pulling at this attention. I've never felt that way -- I would give up whatever kind of happiness I had for him to not have to ever go through something like this. I just want to wrap him up and see him always happy. I immediately *needed* to speak to my own mummy...even though I'd already talked to her twice yesterday.

A is holding up amazingly well. He's very strong and even helped me figure out my plan for the next year. It was only after he had helped me that he let me hold him that the tears came. I felt honored to be there for him.

The Plan:
New York Law School 2005-2006 (where I will kickass)
Then transfer "up." Dream: transfer to NYU. A knows someone who did. It is possible. I must kickass though. Hope, if Dream doesn't happen: transfer to Brooklyn Law or Carolina or UGA.

Until then:
May Overview -- little work, lotsa play
May 4-8, parents and two siblings up for Mummy's Day weekend
May 10, Doll shoots my first hopeful set for SG (yea!)
May 12-19, Glasgow with Alison
May 23-26, back in the office to work
May 27-31, Memorial Day weekend -- away. somewhere. but away.
June 1-30, in the City, working to close up the program
June 30-July 15, NC visiting friends/family before insanity begins
July 15-August 6, Brazil visiting A (this is, obviously, up to him...don't know an exact date yet)
August 7-14, Florida visiting Alison
August 15, Orientation at NY Law starts

That is subject to change, but I think it is pretty close to accurate. Those trips at the end can all be switched around, but those are at least the PLACES I will go. I may skip out the last week of June to go to NC sooner, but it will depend. It will also depend on when A decides that I can go to Brazil. The more I think about that the more excited I get.

Has anyone tried those Lisa's Gourmet Low Carb Brownies? Hot damn, I just nibbled a corner off one and I'm in chocolate heaven. Low Carb was the coolest thing to happen for some of us diabetics. I'm generally hesitant to indulge in any of the "fake" goodies...but occasionally...chocolate is just too much to resist...

Oh! Just got a call from luna -- poor, sweetie! *sends kisses* Yucky busted bones suck! I've only ever broken two bones. My tailbone once when I was 11 and my back in three places when I was 15. That is another story though. Involved ridiculous amounts of Pr drugs, bed "rest" and months that I literally do not remember. Ugh.

I have a 2:30 phone date with my father. I hope this goes well.

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Update: 3:15

Phone date did not go well. My father basically told me that I'm "not good enough to hack it in law school" and that "obviously my undergraduate record was not good enough." WTF?! I had a 3.9 at an Ivy...and I had a LIFE outside of academics. I'm in complete shock. Of course, I'm a Daddy's girl and his opinion really does matter a lot to me, but this is just *too* much. Granted, I'm not the lawyery type on the outside, but hell if I can't hack it with just about anyone getting into law school once there. I may not be brilliant like A or a few others, they are the freaky 179 crowd, but damn if I can't keep up and better the majority of the rest of them.

Perhaps this was my father's way of giving me a pep talk?

:::generally gives father the benefit of a doubt:::