brooklyn

I thought I was doing just fine about waiting to find out about law schools...but I just cracked last night. I got an acceptance letter to one NY law school, but it was my "I'd rather not" go to school. I know that I should just be happy that I have at least a given school, but I don't want to go there and *begins the irrational rant part of the entry* I'm not sure that I really want to stay here for law school anymore. It would put a big ol' crack in my heart if I have to leave the City. I love it here. But financially it makes NO sense to stay here. I'm already going to *meep* be going into hundreds of thousands of dollars of debt to go to law school and when you think about the cost of living here...*eyes grow wider* well, it just makes sense to go to school somewhere else...somewhere where rent is $300/month, not triple that... But I*Don't*Wanna*Leave!!! If I get into the NC school that I applied to (the only non-NYC school that I applied to at all) then I think I have to just suck it up and go back. It would be a matter of saving a lot of money. But I've lived in the City for over 6 years. It is home. I love it here. I'm happiest here. I love the energy. But then again, I'd probably just be distracted by all the I'm just having a little meltdown today. It is exciting and slightly terrifying. I'm really close to my circle of friends -- they've been my family for years. Now it will be a time of transition. I'm excited...but...I guess that this may be the time to do it. I could move back, go to photography school for a year (which I've always wanted to do) and get instate residency and then reapply to law schools in NC if it comes to that. I'm trying to weigh my options...what I really want to do...what (if I had My Way) I'd do. Would I stay here if I get into Fordham? How much scholarship would they have to give me? Would it be possible to keep my current apartment and commute to school? Is it nutty to even consider adding nearly 1/5 or 2 hours of commute time to my day during law school when I'll be stressed out, underrested, etc.? I can't afford to move to midtown? What happens if I go to St. John's? ERRRRGH.

Okay, normally I'm the most *together* person ever, but for the last 12 horus I've been nearly constantly bonkers. I need more sex. I'm only really okay when I get sex twice a day at least. Several times a week does not cut it.

*sex fiend here* Okay. Fine. I admit it.

And since you've suffered through a manic post...
Me laying around before bed...


My new bath toy...

My new scarf that my little brother (he's 10!!!) knitted for me...extra points if you can tell me why the colors are significant...and if you can't see the colors...they are gold and bright burgundy...


Oh, and here are some pictures from yesterday when my friend got his nipples pierced...

Prepping the nipples:


Him squeezing my hand (it STILL hurts!)


Beautiful!!!!

Watching it was just fine. I didn't feel squeemish at all. But now...thinking about it now...ugh...squirm...giggle...wink...

And if you don't know this link by now...you should...Television Without Pity