brookelynne

I ran into an old friend today on the bus, thats always really awkward for a few minutes.
Like
'how have you beeeen!'
'goood how are yooooouuuu?'
'oh my god its been forever!'
'so what have you been up to?'
'not much you?'
'oh nothing really'
'so......'
'uhh, have you seen (insert common friends name here) lately?'
so yeah, I was just...uhhh...'
'well give me a call sometime'
'yah, uhhh, I'll give you a call or something we'll do coffee'
'good seeing you'
yeah. uhh you too'



bleh, I cant stand surface conversations.
I wish I had the nuts to say something more meaninful when that happens.
Social situations like that intimidate me, I always feel super uncomfortable because theres nothing to talk about when you havent seen someone in a long time...
bleh...
it was good seeing her though. The last time we hung out she was on her way to thailand. We watched The Wizard of Oz, and I threw her a mini going away party.

Now she sees me and I'm toting around a three month old...peculiar the way these things come along...

progression, change, adjustment, its all quite bizzare.


In other news I'm getting quite sick of the baby stigma. Nobody calls me anymore, I feel like such a loser. I'm still the same person you know? I just happen to have a massively cute little person in my life now...I dont see how this alienates people.
Perhaps they don't like being conforonted with the constant reminder that there is life beyond whos dating who and what color shoes they are going to wear to their boyfriend's show. That my life is bigger than drugs sex and rock and roll (although these things still maintain a coveted position on my list of priorities) I'm still a hip chic, I'm just a hip mama now.
This mommy stuff is the toughest thing I've ever had to do, it would be nice if my friends would give me props once in a while instead of trying to avoid me...

meh...

Time to rejuvenate my social life...

at least I am loved here

I added a new pic the other day. Its from a set that was rejected before I sent in 'diagonal'.

much love
sorry for the minor ranting